My counselor is going on her maternity leave in two weeks. She'll be gone until September, and until then no counciling. I have the option of either returning when she does or just discontinuing my counciling. And this is a more difficult decision than I thought. I really enjoy going and talking to her, but I'm not 100% certain that I really NEED to keep going. I've been much happier, more confident with myself, it's helped me get over a lot of things I used to struggle with...So do I need to resume counciling in September?
I dunno. So much could change by then, for better or for worse. I guess it all depends on where I am months from now. Still, it's a tough call. There are people who need her help more than me, but...I don't know.
Oh, I ordered the Satanic Bible online and it came in the mail yesterday. So don't piss me off, or I might put a curse on your family. Kidding. I'm just reading it out of curiosity, not to convert to it and follow it. The kind of Satanism this author talks about is...different from witchcraft and voodoo. But I had to hide it from my mom, cuz she told me not to get it but I did anyway. If she finds out she might make me throw it away and give me a sermon or something. I seem to be hiding a lot from her lately...
I spent the past few days cleaning up branches that littered our yard from the massive storm. I just found out that the wind was reported to be at 70 MPH at the peak of the storm. Scary. I'm just happy everything's back to normal, even though there's still work to be done clearing the roads and yards and shit.
One of my poems is coming along quite nicely. I'm still trying to make the words flow from line to line nicely. That's always the hardest part for me. I write my poems in chunks, you see. If I think of a pretty little line or two I scribble it down. I do that until there's enough related lines to mush together into a poem. So I kinda have to fill in the gaps and make it all flow, which is a challenge. But I'll be done soon. And it will be a poem I can brag about. Maybe I'll share on here. Maybe.
Just gave my giant bear dog a bath. He smelled awful and he had dry skin all over him. But he's nice and clean now. And I can cuddle with him again!