Stepping Back (TRIGGER: use of the F WORD and other swearing)

15 July, 2011 - 12:06am — centerfielder08

I don't need help--nor therapy, no meds. Its all a load of shit. I don't need any of it. I am not fucking depressed.
I wish people would step the fuck away from me. I don't need to see any more social workers, no more psychologists, no more psychiatrists. I don't need help. I don't need people asking me how I'm doing and if I'm safe every five seconds.

I still don't get why I need therapy. I'm the opposite of needing help...I am good. I'm fine. I'll make do. But I donn't want to have therapy or meds or help--paying for things I don't need. Gotta save up my money.

Why pay for something I don't need?

I don't fucking need therapy. I'm fucking flailingly happy.

I don't know why I'm arguing this. But I know its true. I don't need any help. I'm fine.

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15 July, 2011 - 5:51am — Dracofangxxx

I'm not sure whether to feel happy for you, or...

But for all it's worth, they're acting off of how you used to behave, wondering if you're okay. So just prove that you're awwright and then they'll back off.
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That's redick!

15 July, 2011 - 6:02am — jeff

Personally...

I only trigger when someone uses the word purple and feather in the same sentence.

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"Why be given a body if you have to keep it locked up in a case like a rare, rare fiddle?" - Katherine Mansfield

15 July, 2011 - 1:29pm — centerfielder08

Jeff, have you seen my

Jeff,
have you seen my purple feather recently? I think I lost it.

15 July, 2011 - 4:17pm — jeff

Yikes...

Works every time. You're lucky I had a tissue nearby.

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"Why be given a body if you have to keep it locked up in a case like a rare, rare fiddle?" - Katherine Mansfield

15 July, 2011 - 9:31am — radiosilence95

Well, this sudden 180 degree

Well, this sudden 180 degree turn makes me suspicious, but maybe my suspicions are dumb. If you mean what you say, then I couldn't be happier for you. I mean, you may need to do a lot of thinking and soul-searching and all that stuff. Your self-image needs a boost, dear. But it's good that you're gonna try and do this on your own, without therapists crowding around you and meds and junk.

I hope this wasn't a sarcastic journal :|

15 July, 2011 - 1:28pm — centerfielder08

Yeah. None of it is true. I

Yeah.
None of it is true.
I just want to push people away from me so that they don't care about me anymore. That way I won't hurt anybody by doing any shit.

15 July, 2011 - 8:02pm — radiosilence95

Push people away? That's the

Push people away? That's the opposite of what you should do. I mean, it would be great if over time you could stand on your own two feet without therapists and meds. But you need some source of support, preferably a person you can trust.

Making friends is a matter of putting yourself out there, being friendly. Just walk into a bookstore or a coffee shop or some public place, and you'll see plenty of people who are potential friends. Just making the effort would boost your confidence considerably, I think.

15 July, 2011 - 9:16pm — centerfielder08

I can't admit that I need

I can't admit that I need help. I don't want to sound week.
So if I push people away, I won't need to tell anyone anything.

I just wish I knew how to ask for what I actually want.

16 July, 2011 - 12:13am — Dracofangxxx