I can't see very well. Something from the pool today screwed up my vision, so for the last ten hours everything has become blurry. This means two things:

1) There may be typos in this journal, a fact that will bother me much more than it really should.

2)I've been walking around leering at people because I can't make out their face without squinting. I already come off as a little strange, so I'm sure this will just add to my generally creepy aura.

I have no idea what to get/ask for for my birthday. Any ideas?

I hate my birthday. Without going into it, there is usually no celebration because there are no family or friends around because we travel so damn much. But that's not why I hate my birthday.

I hate my birthday because every year, whatever parent is with me at that time will apologize profusely, and I will assure them it's okay while I spend the entire day feeling like shit. The only reason I feel like shit is because I feel like I should be spoiled a little. And even though I know it's nobody's fault I still get resentful, and I hate myself for being resentful. In short, I hate that I want to be spoiled, because I really don't do anything to earn it.

Then either my mom or my dad will feel guilty, and buy something expensive that I neither want nor need, but I still pretend to be thrilled about. They can usually see through this act, and I usually feel guilty that they wasted money, so everyone spends the day feeling guilty and miserable. That's why I hate my birthday.

I know I shouldn't complain unless I have real problems, but I kinda needed to get that off my chest. I can't really bitch to my parents about that one.

Poor Ginny Weasley has nobody to talk to. I mean, she can't even open up to inanimate objects without that backfiring on her.

I need and fear sleep.