Oasis, I'm just sorry.

18 July, 2011 - 8:47am — Dracofangxxx

I just feel unimportant to anyone right now.

I come home and I'm really just this roommate to my parents. My mom, dad, and I all eat dinner in seperate rooms. My mom only comes in to yell at me or to tell me to do something.

It's a really broken family, right now.

I wish my parents acted more like they loved me and tried to understand me instead of just shutting me out. I may be the one in my room all day, but it's them that force me here.

None of my in-real-life friends ever text me to check up on me or anything and it's really frustrating.

I'm not good enough for my parents, and I wasn't good enough for Jman.

My sister was the favourite sister. And she used to hit me so much.

I'm just tired of feeling unimportant and invisible and I'm frustrated and tired and I don't know what to do anymore. I'm really sorry forbeing all emo but an apology was needed to you guys.

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18 July, 2011 - 9:12am — ChrisH1551

Aw, hun, it's alright D:

Aw, hun, it's alright D: -hug-
We're here for you, you're amazingepic to us :D
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18 July, 2011 - 9:47am — Dracofangxxx

Thank you, Chris :'3

That's awfully nice of you to say to me and all *Hug*

It's just been super tough lately and today I was watching the show Cyberbully since it premiered and whatever, and it just made me feel terrible. About a lot of things.

And then there was a part where the girl tried to commit suicide, and her mom was all concerned about her, and understanding, and I just felt like... I know my mom knows about my cutting and stuff even if she doesn't say it outright. And she doesn't even act concerned. She doesn't know I attempted but... I don't think she'd care then, either.

Sometimes I feel like I'd have to scream at her to get her to hear me.
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18 July, 2011 - 11:20pm — ChrisH1551

I've heard about that, and

I've heard about that, and that it's made a lot of people cry and junk, but what is it? Like a TV series? :O

And yeah, my mom found the scars on my legs, because I was just sitting in my room with a towel on, and she's like "Er, did you cut yourself? You did it wrong anyways." and I was about to rage on her >.>

But yeah, we're here for you, that may have been like the 10000 time I've said it, but it's the truth :D
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~I don't need no fakes around me, all I want is you to be with me...here I am...~

18 July, 2011 - 10:17am — ferrets

hon

you do not need to apologize for expressing your upsetness to us here, that is the entire point of oasis, to have people that you can tell things to that will support you. and the time when you should least apologize is when you are hurting, that is when oasis should be behind you at the very most.
i cant speak for evryone on here, but i love you and will help you in any way i can my dear.

"A loving man and woman in a committed relationship can marry. Dogs, no matter what their relationship, are not allowed to marry. How should society treat gays and lesbians in committed relationships? As dogs or as humans?"

18 July, 2011 - 11:01am — Dracofangxxx

I'm also apologizing for being a huge dickface on here

I'm quite often a huge dickface because I'm having a hard time this week.

(things will be back to normal soon I promise)

And, thank you Ferrets :'3 I love you too, buddy :) <3 I'm glad that you guys seem to care about me. I really have nobody to go to right now.
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18 July, 2011 - 11:06am — elph

Well...

I'll always be here for you. But ferrets said it so well...

18 July, 2011 - 11:08am — jeff

Yeah...

Ferrets pretty much nailed it...

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"Why be given a body if you have to keep it locked up in a case like a rare, rare fiddle?" - Katherine Mansfield

18 July, 2011 - 11:20am — elph

Just guessing...

But are you on a continuous caffeine drip? :)

18 July, 2011 - 5:19pm — jeff

Sadly...

My taking on a part-time job on top of my full-time job has led to an odd schedule that I am not a fan of, and caffeine and lack of sleep are definitely factors. Should end soon... I tried to shake them off by quoting a ridiculously high hourly rate, but it didn't work, they accepted it, ugh. ;-)

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"Why be given a body if you have to keep it locked up in a case like a rare, rare fiddle?" - Katherine Mansfield

18 July, 2011 - 12:24pm — Quietwarrior

hope you're okay

None of my in-real-life friends ever text me to check up on me or anything and it's really frustrating.

thats just like me. I never get any texts no phone calls unless i am the one who directs it. It makes me so angry that when i explain something that has upset me, that one of my close friends seems to ignore it and find it funny. Its like where do i go. I have 2 very close friends that are going abroad, one for 3 weeks and the other for a week soon, so i felt rubbish as i would have nobody to hang with that i actually really like (note i have other friends but they annoy me sometimes and i am NOT friends with theirs). So thank god i have started to read again. Now i can just read and its a great of closing away from misery then going on the internet. I have come to the very truthful conclusion that Facebook is a place to gloat. Which means do not go on it when you are feeling lonely. So i hope you keeping going Draco and i very much suggest that reading is best.

18 July, 2011 - 11:16pm — Dracofangxxx

That is the same thing for me,

I hate that I'm always the one to have to initiate hanging out or anything. And when I explain that to my friends, that it really bothers me, they're just like, whatever about it.

Anyways, yeah, I've been reading a lot. I've read a couple books this summer, and they really do help XP I don't even have Facebook, the parents won't allow me to. It's annoying but I AM glad to be away from the drama gloatyness.

Anyways, thank you <3
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18 July, 2011 - 4:07pm — whateversexual_llama

Anyway, I hope you feel better soon. I know we disagree a lot but I still care about you.

19 July, 2011 - 8:48pm — Dracofangxxx

hug

Thanks. I feel better already since I went to Colourguard :P
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