I feel old.
And I'm not being emo, it's because walking with a cane makes you feel old. The stupid lymphnode in my groin area was really aggravated today. Yeah I would stay downstairs all the time and not go upstairs if my sister didn't come back to live with us. I really can't stand the one kid always crying because she never gets her way.
If my sister disciplined her kids more often and gave them baths maybe I'd be more inclined to spend more of my time downstairs. But no, I feel really bad that I can't even do anything helpful and the simple tasks I used to do have become hard labor. My body is taxed from having to compensate for a leg I can't apply weight to. I can't stand very long.
Baths are a nightmare and I've been trying to stay clean and not bathe for as long as I can. I feel very down, since no friends ever call. Mainly everyone is too busy getting on with their lives and most of my friends have burners and never pay when their minutes run dry. I now know how old age feels like, it's horrible.
All of this suffering because of a swollen lymphnode in my upper thigh / groin area. Everyday is a challenge, a challenge I can't decline. The challenge of life.
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Comments
Eh...
The emoness is up for debate. ;-)
If you're currently injured, and need to use a cane, any leap to being elderly is kind of your own doing, no? I've seen people go to all-day concerts on crutches (and push to get close to the stage), and see other injured people who turn their canes into glittery pimp canes and wear a bit hat and a fur coat to go out to events, so there is always how you decide to roll with things.
Not to mention, there are some elderly people who could wear you out even without your cane, so... again, old equating hobbled and immobile is another perception issue that could be proven incorrect.
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"Why be given a body if you have to keep it locked up in a case like a rare, rare fiddle?" - Katherine Mansfield
Although temporary,
I can't help but understand what it's like to not be able to walk as well as you used to. And Jeff I'm not in California, so all old people over here are stereotypes of what old people are like. Especially given the area in which I live.
Well...
You acknowledging this is temporary is sort of progress, I suppose. ;-)
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"Why be given a body if you have to keep it locked up in a case like a rare, rare fiddle?" - Katherine Mansfield
lol
I know it's temporary, but it's just so annoying. I'm so used to being able to walk around and do my own thing, but for right now it's so depressing only to be able to walk for a little while (very slowly).
Heheheh
You should swap out your cane for a badass wizard staff. Or a shepherd's crook. Kind of like the 'glittery pimp cane' idea but more you. I would totally use a wizard staff if I needed a cane.
Sorry 'bout the pain though; that sounds dreadful.
Well,
now that you and Jeff have gotten me thinking about it... I think I'll work on finding a fashionable cane. lol
Yes the pain is a dreadful, feels like a little ballon ready to pop if I walk too much at one given time. Just a swollen lymphnode though, but unbelievably debilitating.