I was researching child abuse because, apparently the shit my mom has put us through constitutes emotional abuse. Go figure.
So anyway, on this site, blah blah blah. And then it's talking about how exposing children to violence is a form of emotional abuse (and um, that alone takes up a good portion of my childhood memories.) and then it goes "Even if the mother protects the children from being physically harmed..."
And I stopped reading.
And now I'm pretty pissed off.
I was never in danger of being hurt by my dad. Only my mom, who was extremely violent and abusive to my dad. Hell, she could've killed us a few times, because she'd rip his hair out while he was driving and things like that.
I mean. It's frustrating. I'm pretty fucking frustrated. I don't even need to justify my frustration to you guys at this point. If you have a problem with it fuck off. Seriously. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of being asked about my mom. I'm sick of the assumption that she "abandoned" me when I intentionally stayed behind, and my sister has been fighting to live here for years. I'm sick of people acting like what I went through can't or doesn't ever happen.
...I think I just needed to vent a bit.
But anyway. I sent my mom a passive aggressive e-mail. I'm not talking to her but it was simple enough. The subject was "relevant to you" and it had a link inside to the parenting section of a website on child abuse, and a link to a page about Histrionic Personality Disorder.
She probably won't read it or respond or even understand the message, but I might make a habit out of this. Just. Finding links like that. Not actually talking to her.
Since I can't actually talk to her anymore without breaking things.