I will openly admit that I am vain. How I look is important to me, because of five factors:
1) I want to be in a relationship. It always helps to have as broad an appeal as possible, especially when your dating pool is limited. Furthermore, at the moment I don't think I have it in me to "make the first move". I'm also a little desperate; I mean, you can lower the prices all you want, but nobody's coming in to shop unless you put up a pretty display.
2)I like attention. This is one motivating factor I am not really proud of, and it's one I don't often admit to myself. I spend most of my time trying to avoid the spotlight, whether it be an award podium or a stage, which is why I don't entirely understand this.
3)How you look matters to other people, even if they are not potential love interests. Everyone, from extended family to future employers will make small judgements of you based on how you look. If you are attractive, you are probably less likely to be bullied. Even outside the dating world, good looks are intimidating.
4) It gives you power over people. Another one I'm not really proud of. When you are smitten with someone, you give up a little bit of your self control to them; they have the power to make you very happy, very sad, or very angry, depending on how they treat you. Basically, they can manipulate you. Again, not really proud of this one, and most of the time I try to ignore/suppress it.
5)Insecurity, although I'm not sure if it's a cause or a symptom of vanity. It's probably both.
Ugh. Sometimes I am not proud of myself, but I must always do my best to be honest about myself. It's the only way to improve.