Woooooah I haven't written in a long time. Well, at least I think. I don't even know what day it is. Anywho I don't really know where I stand in life as of now. I'm in this almost duo existence of happy, outgoing, and carefree, and manic, depressed, and introverted. I've never really had both at the same time before.. so it has been a bit of a challenge trying to figure everything out. I'm not smoking or doping all that much anymore, but I have been drinking A LOT lately, which is a problem I need to fix. The last post I made was really hard to even comprehend. I had never have had such a raw emotional breakdown as that one. I couldn't even bear the thought of elaborating on it beyond that one line, it was just so much to bear. And the recovery from it made it even more confusing than before. Which did not help. At all. UGH. I'm trying to make things right. I want them to be right. I wish all these vices would go away. I wish I was still that sheltered kid with no friends. Life was so much easier. No one said quitting was easy. And it's hard as fuck. *Sigh* Least I got Oasis, it's about the last safe place I got left.