I'm going to use this to record what has happened to me since I've been discovering who I am.
Ever since I was little, something has always felt different about me. I'm not really sure to how describe it actually. When I hang out with my friends (who are girls), it's just felt...weird, but not in a bad way. Just weird.
Ever since I was born, I was raised Lutheran. There are actually 2 branches of the Lutheran Church. One of them being LCMS, and the other being ELCA. ELCA is the branch that is more open and accepting of GLBT people, while LCMS is very...fire and brimstone, and 100% obey the Bible. Well I just so happened to be raised LCMS. I was always taught that being GLBT is wrong, you'll burn in hell, ectect. I myself, however, never agreed with that. I've felt that if it's who you are and it makes you happy, then go for it and don't let anything (or anyone) stop you.
I have one best friend, we will call her Stephanie- Steph for short, and she's been my best friend for 9 years. We've always been close and I thought that everyone had deeper feelings for their best friends. But I realized one day that, no, not everyone had those deeper feelings. And I feelings I mean like...fantasy's, I guess you would call them. I never try to have them, they just kinda happen. I've tried to block them away, because of what I was always told/taught. But Steph isn't the only person I've felt that way about either.
Well a while ago I was online and some girl came up and asked if I was straight, and that got me thinking. At the time I had a boyfriend but I didn't feel a spark. A spark that I feel more with girls then guys.
I was also asked out by this pretty cute guy, and when it came to the physical stuff, I just couldn't do it. It didn't feel right.
I know this prob seems like some teenage girl whose just been in a couple of relationships that are wrong for her and that's why she didn't feel the spark. But I know its not just that. I know in my heart that I am at least Bisexual.
Sorry for the sudden ending, but I feel like I've been rambling on haha. The next entry will be about what happened when I told some friends and my mom about my being Bi...