Where I've Been

centerfielder08's picture

So yeah, here I am. Yes, I'm alive.
Flyby told me that people were worried about me.

Basically, my life's been shit lately. And I know you all have your own lives, so I didn't want to barge in and bitch about whats been going on.

At times my anger and depression have been through the roof.

I'M SORRY I'M NOT A FUCKING PERFECT ANGEL.

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whateversexual_llama's picture

i love you

i love you

centerfielder08's picture

i love you too. though

i love you too. though sometimes i worry that the only people who i feel connected to are ones i know by computer screens and usernames/

Ambition15's picture

Hugs!!!

Pm me if you need to. I'm all ears.

"First they ignore you, then they laugh at you, then they attack you, then you win." -M. Gandhi

whateversexual_llama's picture

and also a nose

and also a nose

centerfielder08's picture

Thanks. I dont know what to

Thanks. I dont know what to say though.

Dracofangxxx's picture

NOBODY'S A FUCKING PERFECT ANGEL

But that's why we give advice here! and it's considered polite to listen to it, instead of getting upset and rushing out.

Look, Idk what I said that pissed you off, but I never intend for that to happen. I don't WANT you to leave. What I WANT is for you to feel better! I want you to be happy and be able to take care of yourself when you have to.

I KNOW there are times when we need counselors, but I was just trying to help you modify the way you treat your body when you can't. You can't stay with your counselors forever. That's just a fact. So you're going to have to learn to be able to hold yourself up sometime.

It's a hard world out there. It'll knock you flat on your ass if you don't prepare right. And being in your situation before, I was just trying to relate. I didn't want you to leave, I wanted you to take from my knowledge the things that helped me when there was nothing else to. If you have a willing ear to feel better, then I DO have good advice and stuff. I really want to help. But you have to LET people help you.

I'm just... Tired. Tired of everyone jumping on my opinion just cause it's so easy to be like "oh she's just being a bitch". I WANT to help everyone on this site. I do. But sometimes being helped means hearing things that you don't WANT to hear about yourself. And I'm sorry for that.

*sigh* but I don't even know if you'll listen to this.
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Amazingly offensive <3

whateversexual_llama's picture

darling dearest draco, I

darling dearest draco,
I don't think Eli was talking about you. I don't think Eli was thinking about you when he wrote this journal. Sometimes, people are having a rough time. And they are frustrated and need to go "blaaaaaaaaarg" all over the internet. And it's not an attack on you or anybody else. It's just a big "blaaaaaaaaarg."

centerfielder08's picture

I didnt leave because of

I didnt leave because of you, Shelby.
I left because I'm having a really hard time keeping my head above water. I needed a break from social shit, even online.
I swear, I'm not just saying this, it wasnt you that drove me away. It was me that drove me away.

Dracofangxxx's picture

Flyby very clearly said you left because of me

And you know, it kinda bothered me alot. So... I just felt I needed to say something.
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Amazingly offensive <3

centerfielder08's picture

Originally, I did, but then

Originally, I did, but then after that journal I wrote about me coming back after thinking I would stay off of here, then it wasnt' you.

SydCybertronian's picture

I'm sorry you're having such

I'm sorry you're having such a rough time of it. I wish there were something I could do besides give out internet hugs. *hugs*

centerfielder08's picture

Thanks, Syd. Yes, I wish you

Thanks, Syd.
Yes, I wish you and everyone on Oasis was here :/

MacAvity's picture

Hug. I missed you. More

Hug. I missed you. More hugs.
Bitch all you need, we're here to support you always.
...'nother hug.

centerfielder08's picture

Thanks <3 I think in a

Thanks <3
I think in a little bit I'll write about some good stuff and maybe some bad, too. I'm still limiting the bitching, I think.

Hugs. I've missed you so much, too!

funnyflyby's picture

YAY! I made a difference!

I feel accomplished. I'm so happy you're back.
Wow.woW

centerfielder08's picture

YES, you did, Flyby!

YES, you did, Flyby! Thanks.
Aww, and thank you. I'm glad you're happy :)