So yeah I totally missed out on buying tickets the prom. Too expensive, too far away. I always (beginning of my senior year) had a dream that I would go with my friends and hang out. I have to admit it's slightly depressing. I just wanted to have one night where I would get to hang out with my friends and have fun.

It actually makes me angry that the school decided to have it at a Country Club. My friend L is going... I was totally not expecting that. I felt like telling him "Fuck you.", but that would be stupid. His job must be paying off, I am still jobless. The money couldn't have appeared out of the sky, he must haved saved or something.

But I've let go of that little grudge already. But what I can't possibly understand is why my school felt it necessary to have prom at such an expensive place. Only the fortunate or well-off are able to attend? Yes, I do believe that is so. Why not have it at the school? My school is so down the drain they just decided to drain every cent into prom.

I know not everyone can have the most normal (and by that I do mean what the majority conforms to) thing, but for once I wanted to be normal. Prom, and all that superficial bunk. But I can't have that, all because of financial status. I know I'm definately not the only one not going to prom, but I still feel kind of down.

And back to L, I thought we were going to hang out with M and bum around The City. I feel disappointed to be honest, I just hate getting burned all the time. If I did decide to go to prom, it would be $90 at the door and I'd need picture ID. Still waiting to get my ID (and by that I mean finally finding a ride to go get it done).

So yeah I'm just a bit moody about the whole deal. I just wish I could go to Prom, but this isn't a fairy tale where everything is fair.