Look, I really don't feel good. There's something bizarre going on in my room and in my body and I don't know if I'm just psyching myself out cause I read too much scary shit or what. But I'll get to that later. Personal stuff at the end, some social psychology stuff at the beginning.

Okay I know I addressed this earlier, but I think I have more to say.

can't even believe I used to love this series, what was I even thinking

So, Twilight. Let's examine the main character.

Bella Swan has some serious problems. She's ALWAYS sad about SOMETHING, even though her mom is like her best friend, her dad cares about her, and her stepdad even likes her.
She complains that she doesn't know anyone in Forks- Yet she's been going there for the summer for QUITE A FEW YEARS
I MEAN THAT IS A GLARING PLOT HOLE, HOW DOES SHE NOT KNOW ANYONE.
Anyways.
So then she complains that she's lonely.
And then ALL TEH GUYS pay attention to her.
And then she's annoyed with all the attention.
BITCH WHAT DO YOU WANT.

And then,
OH THEN,
She MAGICALLY FALLS IN LOVE WITH THE *ONE* DUDE THAT HATES HER
I MEAN COME ON TALK ABOUT A GLUTTON FOR PUNISHMENT

anyways
this book really glorifies being a drama queen. Nobody ever acknowledges it, nobody ever hates on it. It's not even brought up, but it's there! She's ALWAYS sad about SOMETHING. Or worrying.

I mean, THIS is what is getting slapped into teenagers' mind's today. That being dark and mysterious and sad is cool.
IT REALLY ISN'T, BROS.

See, the point of "damaged" characters like this is that they're supposed to do supreme good and yet be a miserable character. Two prime examples of this are Severus Snape and Dr. House.

Snape is like, an asshole of a character.
But that's because he was mistreated all of his teenager years! He fell in love with the douchebag who hated him's girlfriend, and then had to watch them get married and have kids and die. The one person who ever really showed him any kindness. I can UNDERSTAND that. I sympathise. I see why he's hurt. In the end, he's been doing great good all along.

Dr. House is a MISERABLE old asshole, and EVERYONE knows it. But yet he saves lives every day. He can't hold a relationship down, he abuses drugs, all that goodness. But yet he's a miracle worker with patients (most of the time). He's witty and funny, yet just a jackass.
I connect with House alot, I suppose.

Anyways, I have no time for my personal stuff so maybe I'll do it tomorrow if I have time.

What are your greatest phobias?

As of right now, I'm really scared. I've been scared every night this week.

I'm afraid of alot of things. I'll tell you later.