So I guess I'm kinda gonna get whiny here.
because lately, I am just really down. I haven't been getting enough sleep AT ALL and I'm really tired of being alone.
I'm just shit to my best friend. I mean, she has new friends now, and they all ignore that I even exist. They run up and interrupt me when I'm talking and take her away. They glare at me when I'm joining their conversation.
I just... Don't get it. I'm nothing but pleasant to them. I can acknowledge that I'm sometimes mean on here, but...
So today, T-rex saw me being sad in French, and she came up to me and rubbed my shoulder and asked if I was okay.
I mean I may have been taking advantage of the situation, but I said not really
and I GOT A FREAKING HUG
and it was a really nice one, too :'3
She's such a nice person when noone else is around. She was all "Aww, I'll be your friend, Shelby!" and then we discussed hanging out and how she wanted to break laws with me in other countries XP
YEAH WE'LL BREAK GAY LAWS
I think I'm kinda ready to admit I have a crush on her
WHICH I NEVER WAS BEFORE HURR
but she's really cool and she's one of the only girls that really doesn't mind me being weird... I really want to at least get closer to her and get a new buddy, cause I mean it- I'm really lonely right now.
I'm at a gigantic time of weakness and suck.
Anyways, I really hate high school girls, ESPECIALLY THE FRESHMENNNNNNNN. All they do is gossip about boys and talk about drama, and get mad if you share the same friend D:
WHY DO GIRLS HAVE TO SUCK SO MUCH MOST OF THE TIME
I MEAN I WISH I WAS A GAY MALE :P
Speaking of, today while I was in the bathroom, I found some of my mother's sprain wraps, and I tried making my chest flat, just for fun.
and I mean, it was weird, but kinda funny. With my hair cut, I didn't look so bad :P
I mean, one day, I would like to crossdress and just see what it's like to be a boy for a day.
I just like perspectives. I think it would be easier to make friends, since I'm already a gigantic tomboy and have like zero girl friends XP
I don't know if that's like, majorly insulting to transpeople but whatever. I'm just curious.
Mood level: 1.5/10