Hmm...I just learned that one of my friends (we'll refer to her as J) has been crushing on me since 8th grade when we first met. Well, well, well. How flattering. NOBODY ever crushes on me. The only problem is, I don't feel the same about her. And she gets that. We're still friends, but we flirt A LOT, even when her boyfriend is right there. It's pretty damn funny. J likes hugging me, making sexual comments, touching my boobs as a joke (even though she obviously really enjoys it)...all that good flirtatious stuff. So I'm very happy about that, even though I don't see us being together.
Have you guys ever noticed that there are A LOT more bisexual girls than there are bisexual guys? Cuz I have. Why do you think that is?
I totally kicked ass on my finals. I don't know this for sure, cuz I haven't seen my grades yet, but I gots a good feeling about them. I treat finals like an athlete treats the Olympics, so...that should tell you a lot about me as a student. But my Pre-Calculus final was SOO HARD, like harder than a guy's penis around Jessica Alba, but I still kicked its ass. So take that, logarithms and cosines.
I had the PERFECT opportunity to come out to my friends on Friday. Right before our AP English final, my friends were making fun of me, because apparently I looked like a lesbian just because I was wearing a plaid fannel shirt and ripped jeans with my shoulder length hair. Wow guys, really? I should've yelled: "YES, I AM A LESBIAN, OKAY? SO SUCK IT!" But I kept my mouth shut. I'm still not ready to come out yet. I'm so pathetic.
Anyway, I'm very sad about school ending. I'm gonna miss seeing everyone, but hopefully we'll stay in touch and hang out over the summer. I'm gonna miss my german teacher, who flipped us off "accidentally" on the last day of school. I'm gonna miss the crazy blonde in History, who used to make fun of me for never smiling and who argued with me about if Donkey Kong is a chimp or a monkey. I'm gonna miss Astronomy class, staring at the sexy redheaded senior in Pre-calc, all that good stuff.
Speaking of the sexy redhead, she smiled at me the day before the seniors left. I'm really disappointed, because I was going to join journalism this year, but I chose to wait until next year. The thing is, SHE was in journalism this year, and because she's a senior, she won't be in journalism next year with me :( Damn it. WHY did I wait?! It would've been the perfect opportunity to get to know her better. I mean, it would've been fine if she wasn't gay; I would've loved to just become friends with her, at least. I am slapping myself right now.
It seems that my life is made of missed opportunities...