Someone is ACTUALLY crushing on me. Wow!

22 May, 2011 - 2:43am — radiosilence95

Hmm...I just learned that one of my friends (we'll refer to her as J) has been crushing on me since 8th grade when we first met. Well, well, well. How flattering. NOBODY ever crushes on me. The only problem is, I don't feel the same about her. And she gets that. We're still friends, but we flirt A LOT, even when her boyfriend is right there. It's pretty damn funny. J likes hugging me, making sexual comments, touching my boobs as a joke (even though she obviously really enjoys it)...all that good flirtatious stuff. So I'm very happy about that, even though I don't see us being together.

Have you guys ever noticed that there are A LOT more bisexual girls than there are bisexual guys? Cuz I have. Why do you think that is?

I totally kicked ass on my finals. I don't know this for sure, cuz I haven't seen my grades yet, but I gots a good feeling about them. I treat finals like an athlete treats the Olympics, so...that should tell you a lot about me as a student. But my Pre-Calculus final was SOO HARD, like harder than a guy's penis around Jessica Alba, but I still kicked its ass. So take that, logarithms and cosines.

I had the PERFECT opportunity to come out to my friends on Friday. Right before our AP English final, my friends were making fun of me, because apparently I looked like a lesbian just because I was wearing a plaid fannel shirt and ripped jeans with my shoulder length hair. Wow guys, really? I should've yelled: "YES, I AM A LESBIAN, OKAY? SO SUCK IT!" But I kept my mouth shut. I'm still not ready to come out yet. I'm so pathetic.

Anyway, I'm very sad about school ending. I'm gonna miss seeing everyone, but hopefully we'll stay in touch and hang out over the summer. I'm gonna miss my german teacher, who flipped us off "accidentally" on the last day of school. I'm gonna miss the crazy blonde in History, who used to make fun of me for never smiling and who argued with me about if Donkey Kong is a chimp or a monkey. I'm gonna miss Astronomy class, staring at the sexy redheaded senior in Pre-calc, all that good stuff.

Speaking of the sexy redhead, she smiled at me the day before the seniors left. I'm really disappointed, because I was going to join journalism this year, but I chose to wait until next year. The thing is, SHE was in journalism this year, and because she's a senior, she won't be in journalism next year with me :( Damn it. WHY did I wait?! It would've been the perfect opportunity to get to know her better. I mean, it would've been fine if she wasn't gay; I would've loved to just become friends with her, at least. I am slapping myself right now.

It seems that my life is made of missed opportunities...

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22 May, 2011 - 2:58am — Dracofangxxx

You didn't know I had a crush on you? ;D

Anyways, awesome job on your finals! and I think the reason there's less bisexual guys is cause of how other guys react to it, you know? Like "oh why don't you just want pussy"?

So they feel like they're like, "yeah I'm straight, of course I am" or "I'm so gay, get those titties away from me"
But there's probably mostly gay/mostly straight guys out there who are reallllllly bi :P

I have no idea, I'm guessing XDDD

"Sexy redhead" is redundant :P And yeah. Whoops, missed that one. But there's tons of sexy other redheads out there! :)
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Amazingly offensive <3

22 May, 2011 - 3:33am — radiosilence95

Teehee Internet crush XD

I wouldn't congratulate me yet. Even though I feel like I kicked ass, knowing my luck, I probably got C's on all of them. And Jenna NEVER gets C's!

OR maybe guys just know what they like right away, without any in between or something.

Actually, I have seen some pretty ugly redheads. But this one was SUPER cute and pretty. And she's intelligent and philosophical and artsy! BUT hey guess what? She's going to the same college as meeee!!! Woo!

Other sexy redheads? Don't tell me...you're a red head? XD

22 May, 2011 - 4:07am — Dracofangxxx

NOW LET'S GET MARRIED AND MAKE SWEET LOVE <3

You know what happens to girls in college!
AUTOMATIC "BISEXUAL"IZATION
YEAH GET SOME COLLEGE ASS, JENNA
and no! I'm a brunette :P I'm not implying anything with that, jeez XD
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Amazingly offensive <3

22 May, 2011 - 4:11am — radiosilence95

OMG YES HOW MANY CHILDREN SHOULD WE HAVE, SWEETIE?!

Oh, I will definitely be looking for her once I get to college. Wouldn't it be nice if her and I shared a dorm? Then we could make sweet love all night long EVERY NIGHT! WOO I'm getting a female boner just thinking about it!

22 May, 2011 - 4:34am — Dracofangxxx

89!

How would we even do that? We'd have to adopt, or somehow rub our ovum together until they magically created lesbian babies.

Which sounds kinda sexy, I won't lie. Like a pick up line or something.

"Hey babe, you wanna rub ovums with me later tonight? ;D"
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Amazingly offensive <3

22 May, 2011 - 5:18am — radiosilence95

89?? Jesus, Shelby! XD

Rub our ovum together? That sounds...freaking hot! Like...damn. My female boner just got even harder.

I'm gonna try that pick up line. I'll just saunter up to some hot chick and be all like, "Hey, sexy. Wanna rub ovums together at my place?" And then bam! I'm...you know...rubbing ovums with her. XD

22 May, 2011 - 4:01am — loreonpravus

Girl bi vs guy bi...

I think it's just the guy culture. If a girl is bi people just kind of roll their eyes and go "oh, it's just a phase, she really likes men" (that attitude is so deplorable) but I think with a bi guy, he gets lots of female friends, but gets stigmatized by the guys. Kind of?

22 May, 2011 - 4:03am — radiosilence95

Mhm.

My thoughts exactly :)

22 May, 2011 - 5:13am — Yamamoto

I orginally came out as bi

I orginally came out as bi and never really had a single girl as a friend so I don't know if that is exactlly ture... :P Heck I still don't have any girls as friends.... I wouldn't date him them so I really wouldn't want to be friends with them ethier. Too annoying!!!!! :P

Anyway... that seems kind of silly someone who would let you flirt with there girlfriend in front them :P... I would never let anyone flirt with my boyfriend in fornt of me... never :P...

Plus I am super jelous I have never had anyone crush on me... :( That makes me kind of thing back now and I feel sad, all you young people on this site seem to have had someone or have someone, but I have never had anyone :( Makes me wonder somtimes what is wrong with me...

22 May, 2011 - 5:21am — radiosilence95

Yamamoto's commenting on my journal! Yay!

Girls are kind of annoying. Unless you find the right ones. Which is hard.

Her boyfriend is the biggest idiot ever. So he doesn't even think it's actually flirting...He just thinks we're goofing off and being idiots. It's funny as hell.

Only two people in my entire life have ever had a crush on me. The other one doesn't count, cuz he's a guy and guys are icky :P

Would it help you if I said that I would have a crush on you if I wasn't gay? :P Cuz you're freaking awesome.

22 May, 2011 - 5:29am — Yamamoto

Yeah I would say it helps,

Yeah I would say it helps, becuase in truth there as never been any gay guys around to crush on me :P... So it is more location, location, location, than actually me.

Well still if he doesn't know better then you really shouldn't do it, becuase he mind not be cool with it if you know what I mean :) I mean it would be cool if he didn't mind which is what I assumed at first, but the fact that he doesn't know isn't cool radio... :P

Of course that is just my option on the matter, I am a very managomus type :P I don't like to share :P

Still feel late to the game when compared to the rest of you. Most of you have relationships or are way younger than me and don't have them. :(

22 May, 2011 - 5:34am — radiosilence95

I totally know how you feel.

I totally know how you feel. There are NO lesbians where I live. Like none. So I don't have much of an opportunity to meet anyone. Sad face.

Hmm...I believe in monogamous relationships, too. And I do respect the fact that she's with him. The flirting really is harmless, though. It's not like we're gonna act on anything we say. We're not gonna date, or kiss, or fuck, or any of that stuff. I wouldn't cross that line.

22 May, 2011 - 5:44am — Yamamoto

Yeah I guess :P I am just

Yeah I guess :P I am just saying that you should be careful, because he might one time figure it out and get super pissed when he realized what you two have been doing all this time. I mean just personally I would find flirting with someone else to be bordering on cheating... so yeah...

I am hoping when I go to my four year school there will be plenty of gay guys avaible :) I am not the type to sit around ogling stright guys so I really don't count them :P Kind of annoys me when I see gay guys hitting on stright guys... or checking them out....

My stright friends are kind of bothered by things like that, s I wish other gay guys wouldn't make 'us' look bad. :P Of course I wish I had guy friends to hit on like you have a girl friend to hit on :P

22 May, 2011 - 5:48am — radiosilence95

...

Hmm..I will be more careful, thank you Yamamoto. I really don't like drama, so I don't want to start anything with her boyfriend. And trust me, you'll find plenty of super sexy guys to hit on ;P

23 May, 2011 - 3:11am — Yamamoto

Personally I would try it in

Personally I would try it in fornt of him and see what he does and make it super obvious I mean super obvious... that way you could find out, and then if he doesn't mind you can do it anytime... AYAYAYAYAYYAYA

I really hope I do... I am turning into way to cold of a fish as it is. Plus my addiction to furries is getting worse... I you could have a hot guy fill me up and I wouldn't even get hard :( Even if he was white and I liked him, which is the best senerio :P

Yet why do my hormone levels really matter in this situtation, sinice I don't know if I have a problem...

Never really been around the group of people that I find attractive :(

22 May, 2011 - 7:02am — whateversexual_llama

i read somewhere the female

i read somewhere the female sexuality is biologically more fluid than male.

just sayin

22 May, 2011 - 9:54pm — Just Dave

Herm.

My penis has never been hard around Jessica Alba. Curious.

Also I'm curious about this chimp vs monkey debate. I was under the impression that monkeys where more similar to the one of pirates of the Caribbean, and chimps where partially hairy and creepy as hell, like orangutans.

22 May, 2011 - 10:18pm — Yamamoto

Herm..

My penis has never been hard around anybody.. Double curious.. :(

22 May, 2011 - 11:30pm — elph

Really?

Maybe a routine check-up by an endocrinologist would be a good idea.

22 May, 2011 - 11:39pm — Yamamoto

NO.... They are not sticking

NO.... They are not sticking another cath anywhere near my cock... :( I have had stuff shoved up three times by docters and so I don't trust them anywhere near it :(

Plus my mom would never agree to it and say there is nothing wrong with me :(

22 May, 2011 - 11:51pm — Dracofangxxx

Endocrinologists check for hormones :P

I'm pretty sure they wouldn't have to stick a catheter up your genitals to check that, just take a sample of your blood. Which isn't nearly so bad I think, right?

Of course, unless I'm missing something o.o
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That's redick!

23 May, 2011 - 12:27am — Yamamoto

No... I don't think your

No... I don't think your missing anything, I just don't want a cath stuck up my genatils again :)

Yet it really doens't matter, becuase my mother is not going to have it checked and I get so many blood test to check my liver form my mediance I am sure that low hormone levels would have been noticed by now.

23 May, 2011 - 12:35am — Dracofangxxx

Well... It depends on what they're checking FOR your medicine

For example, if you're getting your blood checked to see if you're anemic (I had that test), it wouldn't automatically check for everything else too. From that test they couldn't tell ME if I had low hormone levels.

Next time you go in for a checkup, just tell your mom you want to go in by yourself- and if she gets suspicious, say that you want to learn how to do it for when you're older, and that you're MORE THAN DEFINITELY old enough to do that. And then ask them about your hormones and they'll definitely be able to tell you if you need a blood test or whatever.

I, personally, LOVE going to the doctor's office. XD Especially by myself! It's so fun to feel like a grown up and like "Oh yes I'd love to get my blood taken, and oh, can we do these shots too because I need to take my HPV shot and blah blah", so yeah. That's how you could get it done without your mom being there, especially because you're over eighteen now.
If I'm not mistaken, she's required by law to stay in the waiting room if you don't want her there now. Privacy and all, yeah?
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That's redick!

23 May, 2011 - 12:45am — Yamamoto

Yeah I guess that is ture,

Yeah I guess that is ture, but I was more worried about the fact she controls the insurance... and I have no job. :P I mean I am 21 and she would galdly let me go to the doctors on my own, but if I ask for anything extra she is going to know :(

23 May, 2011 - 12:53am — Dracofangxxx

Do blood tests really cost money?

Anyways, if the doctor thinks it's serious enough to check, then you tell her the doctor wanted it, you know? How can she argue with that?
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That's redick!

23 May, 2011 - 12:44pm — elph

Checking for proper hormone levels...

Most likely not checked for one as young as you without the doctor having been given a reason to believe that such a check would be warranted!

In a routine blood exam, the additional expense is truly minimal!

btw, No catheter involved!

23 May, 2011 - 2:23am — jeff

Hmm...

I think you're all cluing into the wrong part of this.

The keyword is "anybody" not "never been hard."

I think the penis gets hard just fine. Just not around anybody else.

So, the problem isn't downstairs.

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"Wanting to be someone else is a waste of the person you are." - Kurt Cobain

23 May, 2011 - 3:13am — Yamamoto

Yeah I think that the

Yeah I think that the problem is.... problably upstairs, but I am not sure what?

23 May, 2011 - 4:05am — radiosilence95

Jessica Alba's not that hot,

Jessica Alba's not that hot, really. A lot of dudes think that she is, though.

Actually, I found out that Donkey Kong is neither a chimp nor a monkey. He's actually a gorilla. So we were both wrong on that one.

22 May, 2011 - 10:53pm — kamkam

really??

I've been hard around only three boys. maybe you just haven't been around the right people

may the crests of light,love,hope,courage,and kindness shine brightly on a new day.

22 May, 2011 - 11:03pm — Yamamoto

Maybe... I think my dick is

Maybe... I think my dick is racist somtimes :P.... Probably just need to meet some cute little gay white boys and then it will be happy :D

Color on people is just not a turn on.... :( Man that sounds so racist, but I think that is the way I work... Don't think the problem was liking furries too much, probably just not around the right color of gay guys LOL... My dick at least doesn't get me in trouble that way, it knows the differnace bettewen touch and and don't touch :P

23 May, 2011 - 3:22am — radiosilence95

Someone is ACTUALLY crushing on me. Wow!

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