Open your closet door...cause I came out last night.
It was to one of my friends, we'll call her O.

So O came out to me about a month ago (maybe a little bit more than that) as pansexual. So I figured that if she knew what the word "pansexual" means (not many people do) and identifies herself as pansexual, then she must be okay with gender variations, genderqueerity, genderfucking, etc.

So last night, online, I was talking to O and then asked her if there was a time that I could talk to her about something sometime.

She said that now (meaning yesterday when I was talking to her) would be good. So I explained how I remembered her coming out to me/telling me she's pansexual and then I told her outright: "I don't always feel like a female."

She was totally okay with it. I also expected her to get bored of talking about it. Not in a bad way, but I think I tend to obsess about one subject and then I can never stop talking about it. But then she replied, saying "You know you can always talk to me, right?"

Gosh, I love her. Not in a romantic way, but she's such an amazing friend and I consider myself lucky to have her.

So then we started talking about other stuff and then I apologized (I tend to over-apologize for things that i don't need to, such as my feelings and such) and said I had one other gender thing I wanted to talk to her about.

So then I shared with her that I have a male name. She asked what it is and I said "Eli Jeremy" and then instead of thinking I was weird, she replied saying how much she loved the name and how great it sounds. I'm surprised because even though she's fine with the gender-y stuff, I still expect people to be shocked and to stop talking to me or something.

Even if they're fine with gender variance, I expect them to be turned off by me.

But she's not apparently!