Jeez, I've seen a lot of depression today, this girl in 4th period was crying because apparently math and life in general was stressing her out, I really can't judge if she's for real because I really don't know anything about her life outside of school, but I think she's a drama queen. I don't know though.
And then here too, jeez, I just wanna cry now, so bad. Because what I really want to do is on my new phone I have a drawing pad feature, so I can make this big rainbow "I'M GAY" that I just wish I could send to all my friends then put on a t-shirt, but I don't want to because I'm all scared and the thought of telling them or my mom just like makes me sick with thinking of all the things that could go wrong.... :P
And then school has been especially crappy this week, and I've also had like less than 5 hours of sleep for the past few days.
But I'm whining, I need to cheer up. So I'll listen to happy music...
But it's not working, GODDAMNIT I WANT TO BE HAPPY. I probably just need sleep.
ANYWAY, long, bitchy, depressing, moaning rant over, I was going to ask if you've ever had any huge drama or issues due mostly due to your coming out.
I mean, I think I've been pretty lucky, I guess, as most of the friends I had last year that I told were all pretty accepting, there was only a few that gave me shit. And a few guys still do, actually.
But this year because of changing classes and schools, a lot of friends that used to be just semi-good friends are now in my best friends circle. And none of them know because I didn't tell them.
And I'm kinda scared to tell some of them. But I also feel really terrible when I can't talk about that incredibly cute guy I sit next to in orchestra when they're talking about all those hot girls they've seen around the school... :P
I guess I'm being a wimp, I came out once, I can do it again.
But sometimes I do feel like a huge wimp. Because I know there's people who are just like "HI I'M GAY" when I only come out when forced because I'm bad at hiding things.
Like, when I really came out was at the beginning of 8th grade last year when I had a girlfriend and I was really stressing about having to kiss her, so I just told her and ruined her.
I posted here about it a bunch, so you could probably find it in my old journals. Oh, I was probably a whiny asswipe back then.
Wait, I still am. But even more of a whiny asswipe than now. Shocking, I know.
And then I only came out to my dad when I had to in order to keep coming to this site, which I couldn't bear to leave, and hey, probably still can't, I dunno I haven't tried in a while.
GODDAMN IT I JUST REMEMBERED I have to take the bus tomorrow, because my brother's sick and taking an afternoon AP test, so he won't drive me, he'll just show up late... :P
So I have to take the frickin bus to school that blows ass so hard.
Jeez, I just have like, nothing to look forward to this week. That's always a real debbie downer...
Ugh, I need to stop being such a self-centered little bitch. (jk, if you don't notice, I love myself, as tones don't really get communicated through type, I'm joking)
ANYWAY, enough about me, if you have come out, how did you, and what drama has been associated with it?