Okay, so, Fears: Mine, and why they affect me.

6 May, 2011 - 6:03am — Dracofangxxx

I got two hours of sleep last night (about), so pardon if this is disjointed and stupid sounding.

I think my room has a ghost.
Not really HAUNTED, I haven't seen apparitions or heard voices or had things thrown, but it feels weird in there. I've been hearing musical, rhythmic tapping noises on the metal part of my bed every night. Sometimes my bed shakes. I've smelt man's cologne when I play my viola.

It's like a musical ghostie. But I'm not afraid of the ghost, if he taps during the day, I'll usually wait till he's done and tap something back. The thing that bothers me is how the room FEELS.

The air is so heavy in there, it feels thick and enveloping. Tonight I'm sleeping on the couch. Hell, I don't even want to go in there until my body feels good again. I wasn't scared at all past 12 last night, yet my body refused to sleep until 3 AM. Everytime I got close to falling asleep, my heart would spasm like I got startled. For no reason. I'm not sure if I feel like something's watching me, or if it's just like

I don't know why- the ghost was tapping last night and I asked it to stop so I could sleep. And it did. It stopped for the rest of the night.

I don't know what to do.

Anyways, a few of my major fears here:

Mirrors. I'm deathly afraid of mirrors in the dark. I'm scared I'll look into them and see things I'm not supposed to.

Same, sort of for windows at night. I always feel like something is standing outside my window at night.

The Dark. I'm afraid that it conceals things sitting and waiting there. I almost always leave my TV on or my light when I get scared because of this.

Jellyfish... My god, what the fuck are these things. They're like faceless hell spawn. AND SOME ARE IMMORTAL LKSLRTSKHLKH. I don't like the idea of a clear, water-coloured beast that if you bump into, it stings you all over.

OH YEAH AND IT LIVES IN FUCKING WATER HURRR so it ninja sneaks up on you! A certain species, the Box Jellyfish, kills you BY CAUSING YOUR NERVES TO ALL HURT. YOU DIE OF TOO MUCH PAIN.
BEST THING EVER RIGHT

anyways I'm really emotionally drained and Boyfriend is being an asshole today. So...

I really just want to drift off away from everone and not be scared of everything anymore.

I'm not suicidal
but I just want to die
well
no
temporary death
a nice, long, sleep and then when I wake up all my troubles are gone and I don't have to pick myself up every day.

(I am a walking husk,
dead, catatonic, stiff)

EDIT:
Waiting to go to bed
having a nervous breakdown

I feel like I'm gonna cry and I'm shaking

helphelphelphelpwhat'swrongwithme

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Comments

6 May, 2011 - 6:52am — swimmerguy

Yeah

I don't usually believe in ghosts, but I can't help some things.
Like my room has a remote to turn on the light, and usually when I go to bed I leave it on to read, then just use the remote to turn off my lights so I don't have to get up, and leave the remote in my bed.
Which is fine the next morning, but if I don't remember to put it back in it's holder in the doorway, when it gets dark outside, I have to search through my room in absolute darkness to find it again.
And I look towards my closet and I'm like "Is that a black shape or is it just really dark back there?!"

And I get freaked out sometimes. I can usually handle the dark though, if I tell myself to just walk through it I could do pretty much anything in the dark.

And mirrors are freaky. WHY HAVEN'T I SEEN A HORROR MOVIE ABOUT THEM YET. THAT WOULD BE SO FREAKY.

Well, good luck, that's all I can do.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xt5ghXdq6Z0&safe_search=on

6 May, 2011 - 7:35am — ferrets

im afriad...

of dead moths

not live ones. just dead ones. they terrify me beyond comprehension.

"A loving man and woman in a committed relationship can marry. Dogs, no matter what their relationship, are not allowed to marry. How should society treat gays and lesbians in committed relationships? As dogs or as humans?"

6 May, 2011 - 10:54pm — radiosilence95

Ghosts tend to have an

Ghosts tend to have an overbearing aura that fills the room and makes you feel different. I know this because I believe in ghosts. Well, not traditional, walk-through-walls-and-go-boo-and-kill-people ghosts. I just think that when a person dies, their spirit/aura can cling to a place and...change it. I dunno.

I share your fears. I'm not a fan of mirrors in the dark, or the dark itself, or jellyfish. I watched a whole special about jellyfish and I will NEVER SWIM ANYWHERE EVER AGAIN!

Awww Shelby! I'm posting this comment late, so I hope you got through your nervous breakdown!! *Super hug!*

7 May, 2011 - 12:47am — whateversexual_llama

my ap bio test in in 3 days

jellyfish are cnidarians- a phylum of invertebrates sharing derived characters such as true tissues and radical symmetry. they digest and do gas exchange through the same opening in the center of their body, bringing nutrients into a single gastrovascular cavity.

cnidarians come in two forms- polyp and medusa. Jellies are the medusa form.

The stingers that you're talking about are cnidae, specialized fibrous cells in the tentacles for emitting toxins.

Box jellies are actually in a completely different class from most others. Buuut I forget what the names of the classes are.