Damn. Why do scholarships have to be so limited to those in college or those in high school with so many merits? I'm of Mexican descent so there's an easy shot into a scholarship? NO! WRONG DUMBASS TRY AGAIN! I think the only way I can find scholarships is through becoming an illegal citizen and then work in a field and tan myself. Then I'll be eligable.

The thing about hispanic scholarships is: You have to be dirt-poor, or, you must be the most outstanding student in you class, 4.0 gpa, valedictorian and all that shit I don't have. There's nothing for the man inbetween. I have no future and I have no idea how to break this to my mother. She'll be... I don't know what she'll do.

I tried the Point Scholarship, but registration ended. I tried various other LGBT oriented scholarships but they had so many prerequisites for the people who would apply. Like I'm politically active for my rights, I don't have time for that and I wouldn't know how to get started and even then the applying time expired.

I'm in Hell right now. This is a nightmare and I can't wake up.