my status;
Status: "Sometimes We Have To Sacrifice Our Own Feelings For Someone Else’s Not Because You’ve Given Up But Because You’ve Realized That Sometimes Things Just Aren’t Meant To Be."
Stupid Thoughts of the Night:
do i tell her that i was falling in love with her? no.
do i tell her that i keep replaying that kiss in my mind over and over? no.
do i tell her that i cried myself to sleep because of her? no.
do i tell her that i always think about her? no.
what do i tell her? that it’s not awkward anymore and i can just be her friend like she wanted & pretend that it doesn’t hurt me everyday.
i'm currently in a BLEH mood.
i want to cry but i can't let these tears fall.
i can't become vulnerable again.
and with that said...i'm going to bed.
catch up with you folks later!
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Sorry,
but I don't think any of those thoughts constitute as "stupid". These thoughts are reflecting an internal conflict that has yet to be resolved.
"what do i tell her? that it’s not awkward anymore and i can just be her friend like she wanted & pretend that it doesn’t hurt me everyday."
From what I can tell it's a relationship turned to a "let's be just friends" sort of thing yes? And if yes, how badly had she hurt you, and do you think you could ever forgive her?
i think they're stupid
i think they're stupid because everyones telling me to just get over it but i can't.
sorta i mean...we became really good friends and then we admitted that we liked each other and she kissed me and that just made things awkward 'cause right after that she made a point to tell me that she wasn't ready for anything and that we can just still be friends.
it hurt me because she was the only girl i ever really liked and felt comfortable with in a long time and that made me vulnerable and to just be rejected like that just hurt me.
i'd like to think that i can try and forgive her but i saw her for the first time in 2 months and she still made me weak...to know that i still care for someone especially after all that...idk if i can :(
and thank you:)
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