So... I woke up a couple of hours ago because I had to pee. But I didn't feel like moving and my cat was being cuddly so I ended up staying up... Then I finally got up to pee and then I was like "hmm. Computer"

So now I'm still up.

Haha.

BUT THERE IS THUNDER AND LIGHTNING OUT AND IT'S AWESOME. Worth staying up for.

Makes me miss Teal though, he loves these things more than I do... :P (Not that there's much that -doesn't- make me miss him but that's entirely beside the point.)

Ohman I had a point in mind when I started writing this but I completely forgot because I'm a total space cadet.

Oh also. You guys and your drama? It's kind of annoying. Please don't start getting into a row about it here because I really don't want that. Just. Gah. I don't even know or care what all of the drama is about anymore. It'd be nice if we could be mature about things. Please and thank you?

In other news.. My friend's older brother's newborn baby has a facebook page? What?

It's so weird that people I went to high school with are having babies already. Children seem like a distant future thing to me... Like... really distant. I don't even know if I want kids. There are people my age getting engaged and having children and it's just kind of mind blowing. I'm not even beginning to be ready for any of that. I mean... I have college to look forward too... And those college students. :P

But I mean... Even if I didn't. I just... Don't want to be having kids or commitment right now. Or for a while.

Then again, it's not like I could get anyone pregnant if I wanted to. -And- I've made the decision to take out a certain set of organs because they're not worth carrying around anymore. Not that it matters, I wouldn't carry a baby. Period. I've been bleeding, just bleeding, and not even a lot, for two months, and it's made me a complete mess. The kind of stress that carrying a baby to term would put on me, would be enough to endanger the both of us.

It's the middle of the night and I'm rambling about babies. It's silly. I don't want babies.

I want a boyfriend or a girlfriend or something but I don't know anyone. It's annoying. Everyone is either unattractive or Teal who is clearly not interested. Well, there was this one kid that I was sort of attracted to but he's also straight and goes to school in Indiana. So that doesn't help.

I could go on about how frustrated and insecure I am again but I think I do more than enough of that. :P

Gonna go read some journals and such now. Or go to sleep. Or eat cereal... Or some combination thereof. But not sleeping and eating cereal. That might not work out too well.