I'm pathetic. A waste of space, sperm, and egg. Nobody wants me, and nobody would ever truly want to love me. Everything's fallen apart, my mind in a constant hurricane of emotion. Like a house on fire, all the dreams, memories, and happiness just being swept away before your very eyes. It's sheer pain, watching everything and everyone you loved turn their back on you, and walk off. Leaving you for someone better, someone happier and more beautiful. I don't think anyone can see the beauty inside of me but myself. I've built so many walls that I just come of as nasty, and cruel. And it's not because I want to be this way. I've been hurt too many times to truly trust anyone, and when I do finally open up, they always walk away. And everyday just seems like another knot in the noose, becoming tighter and tighter until one day it's too much for me to bear. I feel like I'm drowning in my own self loathing, and my self sabotage. And I don't think I can be pulled out of this ocean of hate, I feel like these may be my final hours.