Yesterday I fell down a set of steps (no it was not on purpose, no it was not a way for me to inflict pain on myself, nor was it self-harm). It was one hundred percent accidental. Anyway, I fell down the steps. And its embarrassing because the set of steps where I fell down, there were only 3 stairs. But I fell hard I guess because it took me a moment or two to get up. And this morning I woke up sore. Right now, the whole right side of my body is really sore and in pain. I cant really raise my right arm without pain. Yeah, this is just great.
I bought my mom Mother's Day gifts today.
I figured out / think I figured out more gender-y stuff. And about my PGPs (preferred gender pronouns)...hmm...and I'm not telling everyone this but only some people in my real life (only one person in real life knows so far), but I want to try out male pronouns.
oh and I'm doing summer school. Starts next week. I'm enrolled in five courses.
OH and I went to this awesome radical/anarchist/queer, etc. bookstore yesterday and bought some stuff yesterday. I got three zines and a book. This is the first queer book I've ever had/the first one I ever bought for myself. Yeah, I didn't tell my parents. Because recently my mom's made some annoying, judgemental comments.
Some words that bother me (yes, I know, random)...garage, yeast, obviously, judgemental, grey.
Lastly, I found something out really interesting about myself. I'm in the middle for a lot of stuff, which is ironic because I think, quite a bit of the time, in black-and-white, all-or-nothing...in my mind there are no gradations and no middle, no grey area. Which is part of the reason I get so down on myself because I live primarily in the grey area.