So um... listen up a few weeks ago I started up a face book acount and friended some of my familly, and I started messaging one of my cousins he used to live around my area and we were really good friends, but we don't see much of each other any more.

Anyways we started up a conversation and well it got to where I hinted that stuff was going on and he said that it was just a teenage phase, but then I had to open my mouth and type that my teenage stuff was probably different then what he went through and now he's curious and now I have to decide whether or not to tell him.
I really want to tell em because then I'd have some one I can just talk to, but I dont think I should because I don't know him as well as I used to and I don't have any idea how he'll react.

On a new note i'm finally getting serious about finding gender therapist. Right now I've got the number of a therepist and if he's not The right one i'll see if he can point me in the direction, but in a way I don't wana go to a therepist. I mean what if I go and well... I'm not the best at puting my thoughts into words in front of some one I hardly know, and thats just with day to day things, what if he ends up deciding that i'm not really a woman at all because I can't find a way to say what I really think.

I've gotta go now it's time for dinner.

Bye