Yesterday I had a wonderful session with my therapist. I told her about those racy fantasies I've been having lately, and she basically restated what you guys have told me. That it's completely normal and actually very healthy and natural. We also started discussing the book, another thing I wrote about recently. Very nice, hearing her input about everything. I always feel at peace when I leave her office. She makes me feel good about being who I am.

I also asked her for her advice regarding Amber. I told her that I feel torn because my friends have been putting this idea in my head that I have a chance with Amber, and a part of me agrees with them. A part of me thinks Amber would never want to be with me. My therapist said that I should never give up hope, that I should be patient and see what happens between us. It may work out in my favor, it may not. I just have to wait. I've waited for a year now. Looks like I've got two more years to go.

Anyway, German Heritage Day was yesterday. It's basically a little party that we set up in the library celebrating our town's german heritage and all of the positive contributions germans have made to the world. It gives other students a chance to learn about the german language and the culture. We also served german food and played german music. As vice president of the German Club, I stayed all day long serving food and hanging up posters, which was cool cuz I had permission to miss all of my classes. It was soo fun.

I didn't participate in the Day of Silence thing, but a few of my friends did. They had really cool T-shirts that said "Sometimes to be heard, you must be silent." I really wanted to know where my friends got those shirts from, but of course they couldn't answer me. I feel guilty for not doing it, but I just don't see how it does anything to help awareness. All people do is make fun of you and snicker. The kids sitting next to us at lunch were laughing and making bigoted jokes. It really set me off, so I glared at them and yelled "Shut the hell up. You think you're funny? You're only embarrassing yourself." They looked kinda nervous and they shut up after that. Which is surprising, cuz I'm not very intimidating.

Teehee I feel powerful.