Here where I live, there are 28 minutes left of April 12, thank you thank you thank you.

Awful day except for therapy. Whatever.

Got the "It Gets Better" book from the library...surprised its out so early, considering it didnt come out until March 22.
by the way, big pet peeve of mine is when people put book titles in quotation marks, but I dont know how to effectively italicize and/or underline on here...last time I tried italicizinghere it turned the whole website into italicized text and Jeff had to come to my rescue XP

Anyway, I'm still dealing with frustrating parents. Still can't talk on the phone with people outside the family when the parents aren't around...I cant do it comfortably because then I get interrogated on who I was talking to and why, what they/I said, how long I was on the phone. Can't stand it.

I've been finding online chat hotlines quite helpful to use instead of the phone. So after talking to someone on one of them today, I agreed to call my therapist tomorrow (even though I dont have therapy) to talk to her. So therapist and I texted and I wrote "Somethings up. Can i call you tomorrow after classes?" So she said yes and so I'll try her tomorrow. Nervous, but I know I need to do it.

It'll be best for me. I know that , but its still hard.

I've been in lots of emotional pain lately. I just want to be hugged and held. There's a feeling of absence in my heart. But I dont have anyone to hug or anyone that can hold me. I just want to be hugged. And accepted. And loved.