Woo. Just got red streaks in my hair. The process took, like, 2 hours, but it was worth the wait. I'm frankly surprised that my mom would even consider letting me do this, but she was actually supportive of it. She even said I look "cute." Now if I could just get her approval of me getting tattoos someday....

Anyway, Amber and I are speaking regularly again, which is wonderful. She actually told me she loved me today. No, not in the romantic way. In a best friend kind of way. It's been awhile since I've heard her say that. She also told me she might be able to take me to a rock concert this summer, which would be AMAZING. But I don't want to get my hopes up too high. I would explode with joy if she really did take me to a concert.

But before this whole mess, she used to tell me she loved me ALL THE TIME. In fact, her body language and the way she talked and acted towards me suggested that she could've shared my feelings for her. A part of me can't help but wonder if she really did, or maybe still does, harbor feelings for me. She denied feeling anything for me in a note she gave me months ago, but it's easy to lie through writing. And that asshole sorta kinda boyfriend of hers probably gets in the way. If he and every other distraction faded away, would she still be able to deny any possible feelings for me? I just don't know.

But I'm rather content right now. I'm not completely and utterly jubilant and ready to break out into song, but I'm just...satisfied. Content. Peaceful, really. It feels nice. I have a lot to look forward to in the weeks to come, and I feel great knowing that the whole issue with Amber giving me the cold shoulder is behind us both. Life continues.

Fully alive
More than most
Ready to smile
And love life