It's Over
Falling, falling falling. That's all I do. Brief Happiness, eternal damnation. I hate myself. I really do. This life is pointless. It really is. What the hell is worth living? Nobody loves me, nobody. Say what you want, and call me melodramatic and overemotional, I don't care, I'm not either of those. I'm just hated, by everyone and everything. I might as well just slit my wrists, down a bottle of Vikadin and die. It seems to be that's what everyone wants. I'm sure people would laugh and rejoice the death of the Jew Faggot. And everyone would just remember me as the dick sucking drug addict who couldn't help himself. Either way dead or alive I'll be miserable. I'm in a living hell, and when I die I'll be in hell. I want this over with.
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dont think like that
I'm sure you're not hated by everyone. what about your family I'm more than sure they don't hate you. life is not pointless and death is not the answer and you should never think it is.
may the crests of light,love,hope,courage,and kindness shine brightly on a new day.
We dont hate you. And it is
We dont hate you. And it is worth living.
Even if you hate yourself now, trust me that things will and can get better.
well
despite the fact ive never met you, i love you. as a fellow person, and a fellow gay guy, i care deeply for you
"A loving man and woman in a committed relationship can marry. Dogs, no matter what their relationship, are not allowed to marry. How should society treat gays and lesbians in committed relationships? As dogs or as humans?"
ferrets is right. even
ferrets is right. even though we have never met we still love you. and we all care for you.
may the crests of light,love,hope,courage,and kindness shine brightly on a new day.
Things can get better.
I suck dick and do drugs. I'm pure Christian. (Me kinda sorta relating) I'm not even out, and even though I hear it on every Youtube video and shit about LGBTQ teens, it does get better. I've never met you, I'm new so I haven't gotten to reading everybody's stuff, but I can tell you that I care about you. I fell into depression a while back, but I got out of it. I know you can too. Feel free to talk to me, if you want.
Maybe it'd help if...
...you could recount some of the backstory: "I suck dick and do drugs. I'm pure Christian."
Or, hopefully... this is not all self-referential?
Maybe... just some of it? :)
Uh...
I have done weed. And the dick sucking was just a reference to my being gay...okay, well, I've only done it once. I regret it. -_-
Regret can be felt for many reasons
If the circumstances were less than voluntary for both... or if you failed to observe safe sex practices... or if you parted with a sense of shame or the possible loss of a friendship... then, I can understand your having feelings of regret.
However, I hope the experience was educational and helped define for you what manner of sexual expression best serves you (and any possible bf) for the present...
The long term risk to one's health as a consequence of using drugs (or the inhaling of carcinogens) is far more insidious than what safe sex could ever be...
~_~
Yeah, it was voluntary, but I felt dirty and shameful afterwards...-_- we WERE good friends, but after that things weren't the same. But strangely enough, he doesn't think I'm gay. Go figure.
Now the drugs, probably the weakest kind one could ever do. Did it a few times, with my sister for that matter, and I'm done.As I'm writing this, my cousin is asking me if I want a hit, and I am turning him down. :D
hmm...
I've never done drugs but I have sucked a dick. twice to be exact and I regret the second time.
may the crests of light,love,hope,courage,and kindness shine brightly on a new day.
So... what happened...
the second time that has caused you to regret the experience? No reciprocation?
sorry
I really don't feel comfortable talking about it sorry.
may the crests of light,love,hope,courage,and kindness shine brightly on a new day.
That's okay...
Understood... Actually, I'm the one who should be sorry for asking!
Well..
I don't quite know how to respond to all this... I really appreciate it and all.. it's just I can't say all better and move on, but thank you. Really. You guys are rational and I'm sorry I keep posting things so irrational.... i just though I'd say that so it doesn't seem like I'm blowing you guys of.. your comments do help. So.. Thanks.