asddsjkafsfdajk. I'm all cramped up and I feel sick and disgusting.

I hate my body so much right now and I just want it to stop. It's been nearly 6 weeks. 6 fucking weeks and it's only gotten worse.

I haven't really wanted to go out and do much recently because I have had cramps a lot, and I hate how men's bathroom stalls don't have trash bins, and I hate that nothing is working and nobody know's what's going on. And don't try to guess for me, chances are, I've already thought of that. I've thought of a lot of things, and I know more about my situation than you do... And frankly, I'm really sick of people trying to guess what's up with me. I'm not angry at anyone for doing so, because I understand the gesture and it's not like anyone does that with the intention to upset me.. But please just, don't.

I see a gyno tomorrow and I need to but I'm not looking forward to it at all. I just really hope that the'll be able to tell me what's going on soon... And maybe, just maybe, it's a simple fix.

Sorry for being all mopey and whiny... XP As I said I feel really gross, and I hurt, and I haven't eaten since this morning so I'm not in my best mind.