Im coming out to another one of my friends, one that i trust. Lizzy, we're also going to prom together as friends. Hopefully. She might be able to help me talk to Ricky, the guy i like. And i might come out to another one of my friends, Nicole. She hasn't been my friend for long but she seems trust worthy and is friends with Ricky. Me and Nicole started to do origami which we surprisingly find fun. It is relaxing and stressfulat the same time.
When I think about today and what my it consisted of i get confused. I see myself go through my Sociology class laughing and goofing off with friends while Corey (another, some-what interest of mine), watches me like a hawk searching for prey. Next during spare i watch him as he goes backand forth from the weight room and the cafe to get drinks at the fountain. And right before the bell rings when he takes off his shirt and changes into another one, btw that man is stacked! Third period, Psychology i try to talk to my friend Robyn as Ricky listens in to my conversation and tries to catch glipses of me without me noticing and vice versa. Probably the fact were both confused by each other is a contributing factor to the stareing. And then during Exercise Science when we all presented our videos on Discrimination in general (sexuality included) it got even more interesting. We kept catching each others eye at any mention of homosexuality.
Why am i tempted with this forbidden fruit? Its not fair! All we can do is stare at each other and if one of us tries to talk to the other we hide, not literally but emotionally and conversationally.
Well i just needed to get this out of my head and somewhere certain individuals couldnt find it. Thank you for reading hope your having a better experience with love, lust and friendships. (Relationships in general).