Sick-Bored-Sad-Nervous-Worried

19 March, 2011 - 5:46am — Dracofangxxx

Angsty baww-riffic journal from me. Just a warning.

It's like everyone is mad at me today-
but I don't know what I did.

Wouldn't you be concerned if your friend was doing homework so often they never got out of the house or did anything fun?

Wouldn't you hate it if someone promised to be a better friend and then just treated you even worse?

and like, shit went down at Boyfriend's concert, but it wasn't my fault. I saved him a seat and stuff like he told me to, and I texted him where I was sitting like he told me to, but he sat somewhere else anyways. And then expected me to move. But by the time I got it, the last band was already playing and I could only move and sit next to him for the last song. So I just cried in my seat the whole time.

and then when it was over I scurried out so he wouldn't have to see me cry.
But now he's mad and I don't get it. I didn't do anything wrong. I knew this would happen. But his anger issues are really getting on my nerves. I can't stand it anymore :'( It's like he gets mad but then doesn't tell me WHY and I can't do anything about it and I am so stressed.

I haven't been this upset in a long time.

And it's lonely.

Tags:

Dracofangxxx's journal

Comments

19 March, 2011 - 11:48am — Quietwarrior

-

"Wouldn't you be concerned if your friend was doing homework so often they never got out of the house or did anything fun?"

I could not agree more, last weekend i spent the whole saturday and sunday indoors in my room alone. All my friends (2) said that they had homework which i do appreciate but sometimes it feels like they never want to go out. I felt i was in a coffin or something. Then they expect you to tell them everything and they keep everything about them in private. I have a dear friend just like this.

19 March, 2011 - 8:48pm — Dracofangxxx

Yes.

My friend does her homework so long, she stays in for lunch almost every day. Point is, she doesn't NEED to, she just DOES. And I mean, I'm not trying to hurt her grades, she's incredibly smart, I'm just trying to get her to have some fun again. But nooo, I'm telling her how to live her life :U
-
Amazingly offensive <3

19 March, 2011 - 12:32pm — elph

Yeah... Someone was inconsiderate

"I saved him a seat and stuff like he told me to, and I texted him where I was sitting like he told me to, but he sat somewhere else anyway. And then he expected me to move.

If nothing else... this does suggest that he believes that it's the male's prerogative to have (and exercise) the last word.

At least, this is the way it sounds to me. Sad... for so many young (and not-so-young) males appear to behave this way just to make a point!

However, you should try more talk whenever you feel that your emotions are being toyed with.

I wonder how he would have behaved if your roles in this scenario had been reversed?

19 March, 2011 - 8:53pm — Dracofangxxx

Yes, I know, he's... Bleh

But I don't believe that's what he's TRULY mad over. I think he's upset because I didn't let him get away with it. And I confronted his anger issues two nights in a row.

Sadly, he gets a little vocally violent when I address his anger, or something that upset me... Apparently anytime I even say the word mad he wants to beat me with a tire iron.
Not that he really MEANS that or would do it, but it's scary to think because my sister DID beat me for like five years.

Yeah. The only problem with our relationship is the fact that Boyfriend is a very tough person to talk with and stuff. He can't admit he's wrong, he doesn't say sorry, and his anger issues make him go crazy.

If it was reversed, well it already has been. He came to MY orchestra concert, I found where he was sitting, and sat next to him. If I hadn't, that would have been extremely unlike me. And I would have apologized profusely. I'm putting a whole lot more into this relationship than I'm getting out, but I can't stop trying, because everytime we fight, he DOES get better. And I think that's good, you know?
-
Amazingly offensive <3

19 March, 2011 - 5:46pm — Riku

XP that's so yucky. I'm

XP that's so yucky. I'm sorry.

I am also sorry for not having anything constructive to say. It isn't your fault though and it's pretty ridiculous that he's mad at you over that. :/

19 March, 2011 - 8:54pm — Dracofangxxx

It's alright, at least you commented :P

And I know! I feel like maybe I should just show him these comments so he'll realize what a douchecanoe he's being right now :I
-
Amazingly offensive <3

19 March, 2011 - 8:55pm — Dracofangxxx

DAMN YOU, SPAM, I THOUGHT I WAS POPULAR.

HRNGGGGGGG
-
Amazingly offensive <3