I have none.
Sorry for being mopey.
I just. Gah. I feel like all I ever do is burden people. And people like me and give me stuff for some reason but I don't deserve any of it.
And I know I need to get out of this mindset, but I feel like that's selfish...
...Because of my lack of sense of self-worth.
The issue kind of feeds itself.
Yeah. I dunno. Sorry.
I wish I had a friend that made me feel safe that lived closer than two and a half hours away. Then I'd just go over there and hug them and maybe cry a little and feel better.
I guess it's really sad that there is nobody within a two hour drive that I honestly feel secure with.
You ever want to just.. Escape? It's wanderlust or something. I dunno. I've got it bad. Sososo bad. I don't even want to go anywhere in particular. I just need to get out. Away from the familiar. But there's nothing I can do for it currently. :/
I'm gonna go apologize to my sister now... and I guess go to sleep. I'd like to think that tomorrow will be better than today but I know it won't be. My sister goes back to live with my mom tomorrow. I can't stand it.