Sense of self-worth?

21 March, 2011 - 4:55am — Riku

I have none.

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Sorry for being mopey.

I just. Gah. I feel like all I ever do is burden people. And people like me and give me stuff for some reason but I don't deserve any of it.

And I know I need to get out of this mindset, but I feel like that's selfish...

...Because of my lack of sense of self-worth.

The issue kind of feeds itself.

Yeah. I dunno. Sorry.

I wish I had a friend that made me feel safe that lived closer than two and a half hours away. Then I'd just go over there and hug them and maybe cry a little and feel better.

I guess it's really sad that there is nobody within a two hour drive that I honestly feel secure with.

X_X

You ever want to just.. Escape? It's wanderlust or something. I dunno. I've got it bad. Sososo bad. I don't even want to go anywhere in particular. I just need to get out. Away from the familiar. But there's nothing I can do for it currently. :/

I'm gonna go apologize to my sister now... and I guess go to sleep. I'd like to think that tomorrow will be better than today but I know it won't be. My sister goes back to live with my mom tomorrow. I can't stand it.

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21 March, 2011 - 5:13am — Dracofangxxx

I know how you feel.

My friends are at my fingertips and yet miles and miles away.

I just wanna get out of here and go on an adventure. I suppose when I get a car, I might, and never come back :P
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Amazingly offensive <3

21 March, 2011 - 5:20am — inthelifeofaden

I know how you feel

Lately I just want to get away, far far away. I kinda wish I could start over, but the truth is your past ALWAYS finds you no matter how far you run from it.

You just have to keep your head up and not let shit get to you.

"What we think, we become" (:

21 March, 2011 - 6:18am — centerfielder08

This is why we should meet

This is why we should meet in person, Asher. We'd be crazy awesome friends and hang out all the time... Reminding each other of our sense of self worth that both of us lack the sense of and we could cure the problem that neither of us have a secure friend ( ol buddy ol pal ) closeby. Hugs and <3s as always ... And not once have you been a burden to me. You're one of my best friends

21 March, 2011 - 10:45pm — radiosilence95

Awww, you can come to my

Awww, you can come to my house and hug me! I, too, need a friend to make me feel safe and secure. The only friend who did that for me is currently not speaking to me.

I also would like to get out. I think I'll go on a road trip once I get my lisence.

Everybody is worth something, dear. We all have value. From the cold-blooded murderer to the rich lawyer, all of us are worth something.

22 March, 2011 - 1:11am — whateversexual_llama

i know how you feel about

i know how you feel about the wanderlust. Sometimes it feels like i'm only my most content in a moving vehicle.

but maybe those journeys are what eventually someday will lead you to the worth. maybe it's about just still looking.