especially insightful for those of you (the vast majority) who enjoy the enviable privilege of being nascent adults.

Passing through the seemingly never-ending experiences that gyrate from episodes of intense joy to deepest angst... can be an emotional roller coaster.

But it's a time for learning... and developing into the one you wish to be.

It's a gift that comes with youth, and it cannot be repeated...

Enjoy... and make the most of these years!

You're not special because you get upset. You're not mysterious or misunderstood because you have no friends.

BUT SHELBY :'( I WANT TO BE XBEAUTIFULLYXBROKENX

hm, i said the seller, the guy who ordered the hit, and the rapist. orrrr possibly the rapist's father.

but every situation is different, of course.

I couldn't agree with you more, my friend. Every teen seems to have it in their heads that they are misunderstood and deep and complicated. A lot of my friends crave drama, and I can't STAND it.

I believe that the teen years are the most difficult and most important years of your life. They determine who you become when you enter adulthood. Let's face it: as teens, we are confused about who we are. We all crave love and attention to chase away that fear and confusion. That's just how teenagers are.

When we see movies like Twilight, movies that make love look glorious and beautiful and sappy, we think that's how true love is. But love is hard. I would elaborate, but I don't want to make this comment too long. I think that in my next journal I shall share with you my definition of love. I had to write an essay about what love is for English.

Morals are tricky. I don't believe that anything is black and white when it comes to morals; everything has a thousand shades of grey.

You seem very thoughtful and intelligent and aware of the world. I like that :)

And wow this comment is really long.

A lot of this rang surprisingly true - even though I've never thought myself to be suicidal or even really depressed, I definitely do the trying-to-get-life-to-be-like-fiction thing. I'm drawing back from the this-is-supposed-to-be-my-tragedy mindset, but still not completely out of it yet.

Also, I definitely answered, The drug seller, the person who hired the assassin, and the rapist.

the abuser is clearly the lame one here.
you can do drugs without abusing
if you're abusing you've got other things to deal with
that's like blaming the barman for an alcoholic

The part about Twilight. ABSOLUTELY TRUE!

quite interesting. But a persons emotions can never be dictated by others. If they feel depressed, angsty, or whathaveyou it's their own matter to deal with. A person is not just like anyone person. This is not saying they are completely different, but no one is the same.

Whether you like it or not, a person should never have to hide their emotions just because they will be called an "attention whore" for asking for help. As I recall I got a private message recently saying:

"I seem to recall her constantly complaining when she first came. And I definately hate it when she uses the term 'attention whore'.".

why are you guys even surprised that shelby is "being rude" rofl
if you want her to stop just ignore her

like it's pretty obvious that if you start arguing w someone they will keep going
*basic logic* yes? no?

i'm sorry but 90% if not all of the members of this site are attention whores (myself & shelby included), maybe not in the way mentioned in this journal but in some form or another

why else did you join the site other than for attention in your life? even if it wasn't to whine about your lives you wanted to be in contact with other people AKA get attention, don't say that you're here to write for yourself, you'd have a private journal on your own computer and not online

anyways so many people seems to be taking this website and the people on it too seriously
and taking themselves too seriously

so heres what i think on the whole bit.

so if you go back twelve trillion years(your all like"oh fuck! hes gonna write some stupid complicated annology no one else gets again >=( haha) when the first human put the first seed in the ground to gorw some corn, tis thing called civilization stared. people figured out the more seeds they put in the ground, the more corn would grow. so they did! and it worked to! thos farmers had lots of godamn corn laying aorund! so they made things like towns and families and homes, so they didnt have to constantly move just to get food. so they had this tiny bit of a day called leisure time, which they used to make stuff, like alchol and rabbit fir hats...and farming tools. with farming tools, they could farm more effectivly, giving them more leisudre time to make things like cities and reliogens and goverment etc.
skip to today, the average(westernized) person has like 200000 hours a day of leisure time, but we dont have cool stuff to invent, cause to invent anything now means you have to have like a super computer and a team of bilogists, and a atom colider(aka all the easy stuff has been invented) so instead we ahve all this time that we fill with emoitions. and so we rest on these emotions and think about any wrong that happens to us. ancient farming men had problems like vicous minkeys tearing there crops up, they didnt have time to woory about the fact that cute boy in math class didnt fancy them, but we do"whats the matter with me? why dosnt he like me? is it cuase im ugly D:?" while aniceint farmers would just have time to think"grab hammer! smash monkeys in face! NOW!"
so we spend so much time dwelling on our emoitions, that if anything goes amiss, we freak out. this will happen when people live with our standereds anywhere at any time.so i think in a way, people cant be blamed for the stuff, and another foot they can. our lives set us up to be prone to taking our pain uber out of prospective. butsome people take it wayyyyyyy out of rpospective and think one awful thing is doom in a bottle.
but. theres also a differnce between the people who constantly are saying how deppresed they are and how they jsut wanna die, and those who come home after a long day an dont tell anyone taht they are upset and jsut let there emoitions bottle. i think the differnce between a really deppresed person and someone who thinks they are is how much they share. i mean a faker will tell people they are going to kil themselves/run away, but never do. while a really depressed person may seem fine until they do somehting to themselves or manage to get help. but! thats no the same as asking for help. if like you really ar very deppresed, and you ask your friend to help you in (inset way) your not trying to draw attentiion to yourself, chaces are you would prefer not to, but you feel as tho your dngerous to yourself.
i do believe that on this site that deppresion should be more common tho...i mean were like queer in a straight mans world. like i dont try to, but sometimes if i hear to much homophobic stuff in a day, ill be upset by the end of the day, despite my best attempts to ignore it. alot of use hear alot of bs, sometimes directed at us for being queer, on top of just the terrible things teenagers say to each other anyway. some people can let almost anythign roll off them, but for most of us, it really starts to cacth after a while. its easy to feel like you jsut dont belong in this world, if people treat you that way. pluss this site is a problem dump. you see the complainy side of people here. it scews prospective up.

as forthe assassin/hirer thing,itsboth their faults
hiring person=hiring someone to make someone else to be killed, probobley for revenge or self gain >=(
assassin=does a job that involoves breaking people internal organs >=(
see thye both got equely upset faces. they both are to blame. just like a gun and a bullet are to blame. without a gun, the bullet is just a piece of silly metal. without the bullet, a gun is just a very complex item with no lethality.
and for him doing his job, thats kind of like saying it is the acceptable for soldiers to slaughter civilians becuase they are commanded to by a general.
and techincley, you can be undiagnosed and deppresed, just like you can have cancer that isnt diagnosed, or arthiritus in your ankle. a doctors approval does not affect the existance of a medical disorder.