So I'm calling myself asexual now...

2 February, 2011 - 1:17am — Riku

Am I completely 100% asexual? Hell if I know. Probably not. I could be demisexual or something. *shrugs*

But I like the word "ace" and I'm closer to being asexual than I am not so whatever.

I mean, "asexual" is difficult enough to explain. I honestly can't be bothered to explain what I mean by "grey-a". Haha.

Plus, in most cases, I'd prefer to be thought of as asexual, because in most scenarios, I am. The only time it really matters is if I'm in a relationship with someone, or would like to be, or something.

Yeah.

I'm sorry for being unresponsive recently and whatnot. And I apologize for future unresponsiveness. I've spent a lot of time being anxious over things recently (loads of them actually, I have a lot of things to be anxious about, as it turns out). I'm still anxious over things... So I'm prone to just venting and leaving. I'll come back after some guitar or chocolate or something and contribute things that aren't unhelpful little bouts of random thoughts or frustrations later. I'm not in a place where I can help people out right now. >_>

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2 February, 2011 - 1:23am — Punkish Insanity

Hope it gets better for you

Hope it gets better for you =( keep your head outta the water and keep swimming or else you'll drown.

~ It's a cosmic joke that I'm a lesbian, because I understand men so well but women are a complete mystery to me.

2 February, 2011 - 5:46am — 625539

Plus, in most cases, I'd

this

"pleasure is absolute, pain is relative."

2 February, 2011 - 7:29am — swimmerguy

Well

I like swimming metaphors. So yes, the drowning can't save the drowning, and Oasis has enough people for now.
So we're good.

Just deal with your anxieties. Do you really feel you need to have a word for whatever sexuality you are? Is it just because it makes it easier to explain to other people?
I could respect that. I don't really bother too much with terms...

No one escapes from life alive

2 February, 2011 - 7:55am — Riku

It's mostly for the sake of

It's mostly for the sake of explaining to other people. Plus, I have a love-hate relationship with labels. On the one hand, I like adjectives, I like adjectives so much that I make them up on a semi-regular basis. (Usually with sound effects and hand motions.) On the other hand, trying to cram the whole of my identity into a few over-simplified terms doesn't work very well... :P

As a result I don't take the whole label business very seriously. I like "ace" because... Well.. Ace just sounds boss. That and I get really sick of people assuming that I'm sexual. I get sick of all of the assumptions of ulterior motives and stuff. :/ It's annoying. I'm close enough to being asexual that it doesn't really make a difference to anybody except potential partners. So whatever. I'd rather that most people just think of me as asexual. *shrugs*