I'm so freakin' embarrassed to be writing about this because I'd like to think that I don't think about this. But I need to say it, to get this out.
yesterday, at therapy, we were talking about OCD and apparently there's this really common aspect of OCD that is this fear of being gay...basically the person goes around thinking "what if I'm gay" and fearing this endlessly. I don't think that that's me because I think I know who I'm attracted to.
But then could my transness just be this form of OCD? I don't know that I'm in the WRONG body, though I don't think of myself in the *right* one. One of my therapists had told me that this could be a form of OCD but when we were talking about this yesterday, it really worried me. What if that's all this is, a figment of my imagination?
I'm not a poser and I don't want to come across like one.
I don't want trans people to hate me for this.