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My term paper sucks. It sucks so, so, sooo badly. It is quite possibly the worst paper I have ever written. I was sooo embarrassed to give it to Mrs. History Teacher since she already basically called me dumb today. (Ex-fucking-cuse me for finding it difficult to learn by taking notes from the book!)
Oh, you guys! I saw that scary acid trip show again a few days ago. Ughhh. I forgot to tell you yesterday because I was stressed from the term paper. It wasn't as scary as it was the first time, but it was still pretty freaky.
I had a pretty good day today except for chemistry class. We had a ton of work to do, and there was this substitute teacher that shushes you every time you breathe too loudly. It was just too much for me to bear. I seriously thought I was just going to have a breakdown. I am so, so, so sick of school. I don't even care anymore. I just want out. I'd do anything to get out. I'm telling you, I'd drop out tomorrow if it didn't mean a lifetime of working at Burger King. I can't take it anymore. I don't like to show it, but it's really getting to me. I'm totally fine, and then I get to school, and I'm just a fucking zombie until lunch every day. At lunch, I get to freely talk to my friends, and then after that I get to go to French class and see my favorite freakazoid, and then after that I get to go to one of my only really relevant classes. But before then... I don't even know. Sometimes it's bearable, but sometimes it just gets to me.
Anyway, abrupt mood change! Haha, my best friend and I were soooo immature at lunch today, though. That cheered me up a lot. A guy we sit with in algebra class came to eat lunch with us, and he had some white ice cream. But he eventually lost his appetite, and then this happened:
Best Friend: Just shove it in!
Algebra Guy: Super Duck!
Me: Yeah, shove it in! But make sure it all goes in your mouth, okay?
Best Friend: Super Duck, you're nasty! Haha!
Algebra Guy: I'll shove it in Whorebag style!
Best Friend: Make sure you swallow!
Me: You got a little white stuff on the table!
Algebra Guy: GROSS!
And today in French class, I was alone with FCG. Everyone else was missing for various reasons, so it was only us! It was awesome. Haha. I love having her all to myself. >:) Sadly, we had tons of work, so we didn't get to talk as much as I had hoped. But it was still awesome. I love having her pay attention to me and not IG, which I know is really bad, but IG takes soooo much of her attention! I also love it when she notices me in the halls and smiles at me! She did that today. That always makes me melt. :3 Haha, sorry, little things like that make me super happy! I know you guys are probably sooo sick of the "OMG FCG IS SO CUTE/HILARIOUS/AWESOME/BEAUTIFUL/WONDERFUL!" stuff I'm always saying! But I am so freaking into this girl. Ughh.
FCG was sad because she failed her test, though. Aww, FCG!
Me: Don't worry, I did bad on it too! ((lightly pats FCG's shoulder)) I missed an entire page.
FCG: But "bad" for you is like, an 80. "Bad" for me is like, a 50!
While, yes, by "bad" I meant an 83, I wasn't going to tell her this. And I really did miss an entire page! I wasn't focused on that test at allll.
Me: But do we really have any idea what's going on here? Do we even really care?
FCG: Well, no. Haha.
Teacher: ((hands back FCG's paper))
FCG: Aww, a 50...
Me: At least you got halfway there!
Anyway, abrupt mood change... AGAIN! The last girl I liked, the one from 8th and 9th grade, got a boyfriend, and it's just so weird for me to imagine. I don't talk to her anymore; I just saw this on facebook. I liked her a lot... It sucked sooo much when she left, and I'm scared that when FCG leaves, it'll turn into the same situation.
But if that girl didn't leave, then I could possibly have never met FCG. She was probably going to take Spanish, and I wanted to be in all the same classes as her. Things would be way different if she had never left, so I guess maybe in a way it was a good thing. But it still sucked so bad at the time.
Anyway, I think I'm gonna go to bed early tonight~