Tad bit of an issue that I'm trying really hard to not have exist.
I've developed a mad crush but I really don't want to break up with Wren. I love Wren, I really do, and that's not me using the term lightly. Perhaps much of that love is platonic, but it's still love.
So, part one: The crush.
I met this girl, I'll call her Lupin (favorite harry potter character), on wednesday because she came to see the play I'm in (she does theater with my school over the summer) and right away we get along, having three hour long intellectual conversations revolving around Harry Potter and other forms of fiction, finishing each other's thoughts, occasionally to the point where we're speaking in unison, and comparing life. She's coming out, I don't know if as bi or gay. Also I should point out that she's remarkably beautiful. I ask her for her contact information and she says "you can have my everything" which sort of threw me off.
She came to theater again on saturday. Wren was there too and it was this horribly conflicting thing cause sometimes I was conscious with every ounce of being of Wren and sometimes of Lupin but I really didn't want to be being conscious of Lupin because I adore Wren and I hadn't been able to get Lupin out of my head since I met her and in fact still can't. Badness.
I don't want to be crushing on Lupin. She's amazing and I want to be her friend, but I can tell that Wren is still crushing on me without a shadow of a doubt, I can see it in her eyes, and I want to return that unequivocal feeling and sometimes I do. I couldn't break up with Wren, it would break her heart and I can't do that, mostly cause I adore her and partially because the last time I broke someone's heart has become a running headache.
I don't really know what to do here. I see Wren far more often than Lupin so I've decided to just ignore the Lupin situation and hope it goes away. It'll go away, right?
I can't talk to the people I usually unload my relationship angst on because they're all friends with Wren and some of them know Lupin.