So I feel like kind of a moron. A really silly embarrassed moron.
But it's okay.
I'm sososo moodswingy right now. Like one minute it's just like "okay, I'm cool with this" and the next it's like "OHGODI'MNEVERGOINGTOGETTHISRIGHT." and the next I get all stupidly hopeful in the way I do and then I snap out of it and the whole thing kind of cycles.
It's honestly because I haven't had an injection in like... Three weeks. And I haven't been regular for even longer. (long story) So my hormones are all crazy right now. Which is why I'm not terribly functional as a human. It'll probably be like, two weeks after starting up again before I get all normal and whatnot.
But yeah, I told him (the guy I like really a lot. :P), he was like "Welp, that train has left the station" basically. Is that the right analogy? Maybe. But anyway the point is I completely missed my chance forever ago because I've got this track record of doing really stupid things because I don't know how to deal with emotions.
The real pisser is that I can't sing and play guitar right now because I've been doing way too much of that and if I don't give myself a break I won't physically be able to, which would suck even more. XD
So yeah. My life is kinda... Soap-opera like? Not really. But sort of. Haha. There's a -lot- going on. Just yeah. But I'm ok right now, you know, until I swing back into "OHMYGODI'MSUCHANIDIOT" mode again at least.
I really need to fix this hormone business. God.