People saw me. I was tipsy. I wanted to do it and I used my tipsiness to make it okay.
When you're largely still in the closet, the smallest things, the smallest means of flirtation, are a big deal. I didn't know people were watching, or that she told my friend.
But I wanted nothing more than that. But she saw it as taking advantage of me. But I wanted something to happen. But it didn't, and never will.
I'm amazed that it was taken as "hitting on" her. Because I am SO BAD at that. At least I did it right. And apparently she took it as a bigger deal than she showed.
Glad to learn all of this through text message.