I have become invisible
people see me only when I see them
only when I want to be seen
never when I need to be seen
The entire world is ignoring me
believing me when I say I’m fine
not once second-guessing
I should be happy they trust me
but I’m lying.
What do they expect me to say?
I can’t tell them what’s wrong cause I don’t know
And when I’ve told them I don’t know
that’s when they don’t believe me.
They are all so worried about me already
I cannot go anywhere without “You okay?”
because of yesterday when I lost it front of them.
I don’t deserve their worry so I hide myself
take my panic and confusion
hide it where they won’t see
because they don’t look.
The corset’s been off over an hour
but I still can’t breathe.
and I failed. Not just twice, but to infinity.