I saw you today. I begged and wheedled to come down to see you and when we got there you snubbed me. You ignored me, disregarded me, slighted me, spurned me, shunned me, gave me the cold shoulder, avoided me, evaded me, sidestepped me, dodged me, ran away from me, eluded me. Worst of all was the fact that I deserved it.
I've been a selfish bitch, clinging to you one moment then blowing up at you for no reason the next. I fell and you helped me up, then I tripped you. That's what it feels like. I don't know why I'm so mean to you, or why whenever I'm around you lately, I cry. I don't like you to see me weak, and neither do you. If I could take back everything I said since November 19th, I would.
You are the one I turn to when I can't deal. You're the one who clams my anger, you're the sun to my rain, the wind to my clouds. The only thing between me and insanity is you. Life's a piece of shit, but Life's a Laugh as well. You reminded me of that. Thank You.
Why I can't apologize to you is a mystery. I said I was sorry, but then I left. I was about to cry, you see. I feel like a rude, insensitive, nosy asshole and I want to apologize. I want to stop treating you the way I used to and I want you to be my best friend again.
Me and Ellie never get into fights, so why to you and I have so many?