I'm trying not to fall for this guy, and it's clearly not working.
Why? Part of me wants it, of course. It wouldn't happen if that weren't the case.
But it seems silly because I'm okay with the way things are between us except that I want him to know how I feel. He makes me feel safe, I think that's significant.
...Well, I want to cuddle and sip coco too but it's okay if we don't.
Ahaha. Please, someone make me aromantic or something. I'm turning into a cheeseball. The worst part is that I don't even feel vulnerable like I normally would because I trust him. I can count the people I trust on one hand with room to spare.
I hope this isn't a mistake...
But knowing me, it probably is.
(Yeah, it's not a coincidence that every time I come back to this site after some kind of absence I've got some new object-of-affection to flub on about. That's what you guys are here for right? To encourage my nonsense. :P )
EDIT: You know what? Fuck it. I'm gonna stop trying to reign my emotions in because I'll eventually fail at it anyway. Besides, you only get to be 18 and stupid once. :P
(Oh also, sorry that I hardly ever comment on anything ever. I'm really lame I know. Feel free to ignore my stupid rants because of that. |D; )