I went out walking.
The air smells so fresh at night, as if the world was regenerating. I walked down the street to the old playground. The creaking swings beckoned to me as I watched them sway in the slight wind. I sat down and thought as I swung.

I thought about yesterday, about my troubles and his. I looked at us as another may have seen us, two friends taking comfort in each other's presence.

If I could live any day over again it would be yesterday. It wasn't the best day of my life. It was the safest. I felt safe, secure, I felt like me, whoever that is. I want that again. I want to feel that safe.

I walked down the side streets and alleys, my feet taking me wherever they pointed. The song playing in my head, "Please don't leave me" by P!nk played over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over again. The words "I forgot to say out loud how beautiful you really are" pop out from the mesh of noise and music.

I wish I could just sit back and watch life unfold, not take part in it, just sit back, relax and watch it unfold.