Well, not exactly. It was really fun though. Went to the movies with two of my cousins. Grandma came too, which meant no looking at girls. (Gran's hell religious and is in denial about me liking the female sex). I was looking at the resources link and found a pretty good piece on how to stop cutting yourself. I generally don't use a blade, although I know a friend who could benefit from the article quite a bit. I don't generally do it...it's just since my party, all I've been thinking about is the pain I seem to cause everyone I love and who are important to me, what with S crying and my Mum crying the day after the party (she saw me talking to one of the girls at the party and thought I was asking her out or something, I guess). Nice birthday, ay?
I don't know which sucks more-having to go to school or not being able to see my friends as much as I would like during school break. I think it would have to be the latter, because even though school is ..........(insert word here)......, your friends just make everything more bearable, if you get my drift.
I should probably be doing my Human Bio. assignment, although it's so boring. Not to mention the fact that it's on something that I'm probably never going to use (the morning after pill and contraception). >:(
I miss T. She hasn't replied to any of my texts for a while now...I'm currently hoping that she's run out of credit and isn't just avoiding me (it wouldn't be the first time if she is). I can't believe how much I like her. It probably has something to do with the fact that she wanted me to protect her from some psycho girl who wanted to bash her up at one point. I got all protective and I knew what would happen if I didn't do something soon, but I just couldn't turn away from those beautiful eyes... *stares off into space*. It's because of those eyes that my grade in Human Bio. is gone down. I used to get above 95% (probably had something to do with me having a crush on the teacher who is very young and attractive) and now it's down to 80%, and even that is because I cram just before the tests. Good thing I'm dropping Human next year. T's dropping it as well. Which means that I might not have any classes with her at all next year. :( Hopefully we'll have English together. It's like the silver lining right now.
I love making T irritated. She's so cute when she's irritated. All I have to do is say something about how hot I think Bradie is and how he's mine and she goes all jealous. XD She has the most amazing ideas about love. She thinks that one day, she's going to have a fairytale wedding and live happily ever after. Whenever she tells me about it, I just can't help thinking that I want to be able to give that to her. Man, I talk a lot about her. I need to stop though, 'cause she doesn't feel the same way. Everytime I think that I'm over her, something happens and I've fallen for her all over again, head first as usual. Last time, she died her hair blonde. Just before the Year 11 River Cruise. To which she wore an amazing black dress...... It took every bit of self-restraint to keep away from her. Although, by doing that, she opened up a bit and told me a few of her secrets. And then we had a water fight!!!!! THAT WAS FUN!!!!!
She keeps wanting to set me up with one of her friends, but I don't know what to say. She's probably going to be way out of my league. I'm probably a 2 (if I'm lucky) and she'd probably be a 9 or 10 (seeing as how she is 14 and was dating a 21 yr old).
S is probably the only one in my year who knows the extent of my feelings for T and she's tried to help me get over them. It didn't really work. I ended up being more confused and realised I was starting to develop feelings for S. Thank God that's over.
I really should start some homework now. Enough ranting. Over and out.