I can't get it out and it is bothering me a little bit more every minute.
My life these days has been a curiosity. As in nothing has really been happening, except I came up with this idea I want to draw.. It's weird because I don't know were it came from it's more like a memory than anything, I can feel the whole thing so clearly that I want to express it in some way... Or draw it, but it would mostly be someone running or walking through a city. I need to find something to make it a story, but then again that's not what it is. I really want to find a way to describe this city in words or images that aren't totally corny. Or me trying to be deep. This city is just the whole part of my idea,just going through it.. Images of it. I love it but I don't know were it came from or how I'm going to bring it out. Though I've drawn out some pictures that look like it.
Yes, on to real life now. In school I've been trying to switch into a higher level Spanish class for ages. However Ms. Sharpie,( no not her name but it's what I'm calling her.) my counselor is taking forever to process the forms. So I'm stuck in Spanish 4HH ... I mean I get to spend more time with incredibly attractive girl, who hopefully won't fail the class without me. But still, this class I swear it is making my Spanish worse. This might sound bad to those who don't know Spanish or are trying to learn so I'm sorry for my arrogance but I just want to move on. My art class is becoming increasingly challenging but I'm enjoying it, though it is cluing me in on how my friends don't understand that it's not that I don't want to be out at school.. It's just that nobody asks and I don't use the word Gay or Lesbian in every other sentence along with I and Am.It's OK that those two are so prideful but they shouldn't be so arrogant about it. It's OK to not remind everyone verbally every day. Well, I just don't think that they are encouraging any one else from even trying to leave the closet.
Ah the closet, it really doesn't exist in my school context. There are two thousand students, the only way I'm going to "come-out" at school is if I announce it on loud speaker. And I'm not trying to pretend I'm anything I'm not... Unlike some people. This year is going by fast, there has to be a brick wall to smash into soon. Otherwise I'm going to forget everything.