Some notes and some music

Riku's picture

I am hopelessly in love with this song, just so you know.

I woke up this morning and stretched and my neck made this awful poping noise and now it hurts to like, move. I guess the stretching caused a muscle to relocate itself somewhere it's not supposed to be or something. I'm not sure how to fix that. XP

So now between this happening every so often, and the tick in my neck (my neck twitches randomly. It used to bug me but I don't even notice anymore.) my dad wants me to see a doctor. Go figure.

I was supposed to go to this awesome UU thing next weekend but it was canceled. D: I'm actually pretty upset about this, I was really looking forward to that. And now I'm not going to get to wear my costume/ show off my Halloween makeup skills until the 30th. :P

Oh also, I'm fairly convinced that I'm going to be single forever... Still. Maybe I just say that because I wanna be. I don't even know anymore.

... I told myself I would finish my portfolio by the end of this month... I guess I'd better get cracking.

I also need a grammar book or something, so I don't bomb the writing section of the SAT. :P

I think I'll do fine. I figured out this whole test-taking business my senior year... And my portfolio and essay are going to have way more weight anyway... Because it's art school. Haha.

-Asher

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centerfielder08's picture

i know this is kinda random,

i know this is kinda random, but i wanna aadmit soemthin im ashamed of....
i miss being called "he".

Riku's picture

Why is that something you're

Why is that something you're ashamed of?

I still think of you as a "he". You never gave me a reason not to (such as telling me not to.) so I never stopped.

It doesn't matter if you identify as male or genderqueer or female or don't know how to identify. If you feel more comfortable being referred to by male pronouns, that's how it is, and that's ok.

centerfielder08's picture

I guess because I'm not sure

I guess because I'm not sure how to describe it or what it feels like, so I'm ashamed. Right now, anytime I try to express it I think I sound foolish because no words seem to grasp this.

Thank you. I was looking this weekend at old posts and it made me so happy being called "he" but of course, outside of Oasis-world I'm your regular, run-of-the-mill happy feminine girl. I hate playing that part.

I'm not male nor man nor any of that. But girl doesn't seem to be me either. I don't know why I feel so strongly tonight.

But I really want to escape to the Eli side...