A confession and a list:
1) I pretend not to notice if people crush on me so I wont have to deal with it. If confronted, I will deny that they do.
2) If I don't want to talk to somebody, I will blatantly blow them off.
3) I judge people all of the time.
4) I'm two faced. Part of the reason I am like this is because I don't want people to know how cruel I can be.
5) I always look down on people who aren't modest, even if they have the right to brag.
Low self esteem and vanity are BFF's. I think self loathing may be their mutant love child.