I need to work on not giving off such strong messages of 'don't touch me.' The only touching I get, from anyone, ever, is arm's-length hugs. You know, the ones in which two people each put a hand on the other's back and then sort of bump shoulders. And I only even get those from two or three people.
My classmates, on the other hand, touch each other constantly. Especially the girls, but sometimes the girls and the guys touch, and even a lot of the guys touch each other more than anyone touches me. But the girls, they are pretty much entwined all the time. They sit in each other's laps, rub each other's heads, give each other piggyback rides, today I even saw one girl scratching another under the chin, like one would do to a cat. And the second girl was purring.
So I commented: 'Why are all these people touching each other? No one ever touches me...'
Two people heard me. One, my friend Leigh, answered, 'Because you crawl into a corner whenever someone tries.' And then they both poked me. Poked me. With one finger. On the shoulder. Thanks, you two. That's about, what, one square centimetre of physical contact. Thanks a lot. Sheese, that's worse than the arm's-length hug.
It's true, though, about the crawling into a corner - not literally, of course, but close enough. I need to stop doing that. I'm just not entirely sure how...