So yeah. I'm an insensitive jerk. It happens sometimes.

I get really annoyed at people when they get all "OH MAN EVERYTHING IS SO TERRIBLE."

Blackbelt does this a lot.

On top of this, I'm pretty bad at putting myself in other people's shoes, even when I'm not ticked off at them for refusing to try to see things without the shades of despair on. Like, bad enough at it that my Aspie friend thought I might have Aspergers too. I don't have Aspergers though. I'm just cold without having an excuse to be.

It's a wonder he still talks to me really.

So yeah anyway, he got ticked off at me because I was saying that I don't see being trans as something to be ashamed of. I mean, being ashamed or proud of being trans is kind of like being ashamed or proud of your eye color to me. I don't understand it. And if I'm already insensitive it's just a million times worse when I can't relate to or understand something. It's like the part of my brain that normally goes "maybe you shouldn't say that because that might bother them" just shuts off completely.

So I expressed that I don't see why he's ashamed of it. Tried to be encouraging or something... And he flipped a lid at me and implied that I'm delusional in some way and that my life must be easy because I don't feel 'shame' pertaining to my transition or whatever came before. I guess I deserved to be yelled at. But I don't think I deserved that. Or maybe I did since this isn't my first offense with the insensitivity and all. I don't even know. He's kind of a hot-head.

So now I'm kinda angry at him because he has no idea what I'm going through but he makes it sound like it's so easy... But I obviously offended him and I feel kind of bad about that. Plus considering that he is a hot-head he probably didn't really think about half of the shit he said to me.

I wish he weren't so insecure. :/ I worry about him still. Goddamn I have a lot of people to worry about.

In other news, TotalGeek42 is an amazing, generous person. I love him and next time I see him I am going to punch him in the face (Because I'm angry at him for being so overwhelmingly nice) and then marry him. In that order. (I guess this is a proposal?) Our honeymoon will consist of marathons of silly shows that we only half-way watch because we're talking about them at the same time (while upside-down, obviously), coffee, discussing what constitutes a good thunderstorm, conversations about mythological beings, and not much of anything else. We'll sleep on separate beds like they do in old TV shows, and stay up late talking about something that probably doesn't make sense to the fully conscious... And then the next day we'll go outside and play frisbee. ON ANOTHER PLANET. IN THE PAST. Because he's a TIMELORD and we can do that.

Only he's a dog person and I'm a cat person so that might make things troublesome somewhere down the line. I GUESS YOU CAN KEEP YOUR DOGS AS LONG AS YOU TAKE CARE OF THEM.

PFFFF. I should make up stories about marrying my friends more often. I actually feel a lot better now, mostly because that sounds like a lot of fun. XD WHO NEEDS ROMANCE WHEN YOU CAN HAVE UPSIDE-DOWN TIME? AND TIME-TRAVEL? EXACTLY. 'Sides, we'd still date other people. The marriage would just be a testament to how awesome we are. :P

Okay I'm really tired now so I'll stop before this gets any sillier. Goodnight.