anyway... i had the chance to engage in a favorite activity, saw three fights at school, played some guitar (like always), and just rotted on the net. around lunch time at school i felt so (randomness ensues now) contented and happy. i was reading a bit of the bible under the big tree and eating a few cherry snacks in the spare time i had after lunch. i just felt so good. i feel good now too. but last night was very odd. i dreamt that i was arrested for 1st degree murder, and i woke up and started screaming, then i guess i was still asleep so i woke up a second time and just felt my heart and head racing. i was just emotionally exhausted and i was tired all morning. i just hated the whole thing, but couldn't help but wonder "why?".