Well today, today was a OK day. I just feel like writing a normal journal, not anything in particular. Well I did just read the Afterellen Glee recap and well.... YES OHMYGOD I LOVE HEATHER HOGAN! When Pretty Little Liars was on the recaps were so epic now I'm happy that I get to read more recaps. RECAPS. I just had to say it one more time!

Anyway, lately I've been thinking about a lot, mostly because I'm half over the people I was into so my thoughts aren't angles of they're face. Si I've been thinking about things that worry me, or that I think are interesting. I mean I'm always thinking how it is that I have my own private mind and all, I mean it really is amazing. To be able to form words and abstract thoughts... All to yourself what a choice to keep in. Then there is the concept of how everything goes, I don't know if I believe in fate or free will but in some way I feel like there is some sort of pattern out there. Life is a maze to me a great big puzzle, though to solve it would be impossible. There's just so much! So much out there to touch and smell and feel. Can you tell I'm completely dehydrated and exhausted? I don't know, it's just some things are hard to put into words.... Just I love doing what I do and being who I am... As jarringly painful as it has always been. I feel bad and good and like theres a chain around my lungs but that is what I feel now. I'll go with what I get and I'll try to learn what I can from it... But this year has been pretty intense so far, I can't wait.